The Journal of a Forgetful God

Stop

2010-08-26T01:41:00.000-07:00

Often we get so caught up in what we think is going on, who we think we are, and where our place in the world is, that we forget a fundamental truth.
Take away all your thoughts. Stop. Breathe. Feel the body you are in. Feel the experience you are.
This state of being is free of thought, of time, and of personal identity. It is a place where all your strings are cut and you are left with nothing to hold onto. No concepts, no pleasant beliefs or affirmations, no status; nothing.
Can you deal with that? Does it scare you? Why does it scare you?
Stop.

We cannot escape sorrow, fear, or pain. These are facts of life, as are their opposites. We have to accept these experiences and observe them. To build a mental barricade of thoughts/beliefs/affirmations just to protect us from feelings we deem unnecessary only limits our capacity within the mind.

Stop trying to feel better. Just feel. Stop.

The Eye of I

2007-10-23T19:09:00.000-07:00

The Eye of I

The beginning and the end is I. And I is Now, and I is Here. Neither I, nor Now, nor Here have any meaning. For there is no Thing other than what is. The I is and is nothing. Nothing cannot be counted, Nothing cannot be measured, Nothing cannot be described. The beginning is also the end and all Things between.

The Eye of I is itself. The I sees its own possibilities with the Eye. It sees Creation in Nothing, it sees what is as itself. The Eye of I observes while the I is observed observing. The Eye and the I are Now and Here.

The possibilities of Nothing span from no Thing to every Thing. Nothing is Here and Nothing is Now. The Eye sees all things between no Thing and every Thing in the Here and in the Now. The Eye is Here and Now.

The Eye sees the I and the I is Nothing. In Nothing is no thing and every thing. The I is both the I and Not the I to the Eye. The Eye sees the I and does not see the I between no Thing and every Thing. The Eye that sees is the Eye that does not. The Eye that does not is seen by the Eye that does. The I is the Eye.

In the Eye We exist, to the I We do not. The I is what is, the Eye sees what is. The Eye is the Beginning and the End, the I is Eternal.

Be - Recommended Reading

2007-10-20T11:02:00.000-07:00

For those of you who have an interest in learning more about Consciousness as well as its Affect on the Body, I have provided a list of books that I have read and would highly recommend. These books are of varying topics and cover the basics for anyone wishing to understand their "awakening mind". Enjoy.

Be: The Cure for Dis-ease

2007-10-16T17:20:00.000-07:00

Expressing myself....

2007-05-19T23:20:00.000-07:00

I haven't been writing lately because I've recently found an interest in another form of expression. The beautiful part about writing on this blog is that the words give me a certain degree of anonymity...which is very helpful when talking about the undefinable "self". I've decided to try another form of expression and self-communication through the medium of YouTube. This is a much different form of expression and is quite entertaining. I will continue to write here on the blog, but if you would like to visit my Video Page please visit the link below

Sincerely,

Me

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=forgetfulgod

Family

2007-04-29T22:19:00.000-07:00

Family. Often we seem to think of family as the people who are biologically connected to us. Those who share a name, a history, or a culture. This perception of family is rampant in our reality...it is promoted, advertised, and even deemed necessary. It is the belief that you are part of a group that is somehow separate from the other "groups" throughout the world. It's a comfortable perception surely, but is it really what is?

As a body this perception is absolutely vital...it is a way of answering the question "Who am I?" or "Where do I come from?". But as a consciousness....things are a little different.
True, it's very reassuring to know that there are certain people that absolutely care for you and love you...it's nice to know that those people we deem as "family" will always be there for us. It's an ego boost...a way of feeling important to someone else. But is this always the case? Unfortunately no.
Often our feelings of resentment or even disappointment come from the fact that this concept, which we have been told over and over again is the way things should be, is not the way things are. Sometimes we are abandoned, ignored, taken advantage of, or even used as a crutch for those who are supposed to understand us the most....those who are supposed to love us unconditionally often have conditions for that love. We are often "disowned" for something as simple as a different life choice...we are shunned because we choose to look at life a little differently, we choose to follow a different path, or even simply because we value different things.
Why? Because the concept of family is an ego-based concept. It is a belief that the body is more important than the consciousness that drives it. It is the belief that we are connected by blood and history...not by our awareness of self.
In being One entity the fact is that we have no family and that we are all family. "Family" doesn't even begin to describe how we are all connected...and in letting go of the concept we let go of the belief structure behind it. When we let go of our ingrained preconceptions of family we begin to see that those who are biologically connected to us are the same as everyone else...we lose our expectations of them...we accept that they, like every other reflection of your "self", have the right and ability to do and think anything they would like to. They are not under any illusionary responsibility to accept your life, the changes within it, or even your choices...they are under no contract.
Without the concept and preconceptions of a biological "family" we are faced with the realization that everyone has the right and ability to choose. They can accept you or not...they can relate to you or not...they can share with you openly or focus on their own needs and wants. If we all have this ability then there is no reason to separate us simply based on our last names or blood type...in fact there is no need to separate us at all. If blood is what is important...we all have it. If we truly must have a Family...then we are all part of it. The questions "Who am I?" and "Where do I come from?" can be answered quite easily....you are us and we are you, we come from each other. We are one....value all of us, treat us equally and expect nothing. I will do the same for you.

Your brother, sister, father, mother, son, and daughter,

Me

Interesting clues....

2007-04-14T22:46:00.000-07:00

I'm not generally one who clings to belief structures or the interpretations of others. I don't believe a book or scroll will give you the answers...but I do pay attention to everything that comes through my reality.
Reality...from the very beginning, has had a lot of constant symbols (The Bible is an example) that practically scream for your attention. These symbols are made important by their age mostly...and since we are not trying to learn new things but rather remember things we already know...history is a good place to look for clues that we have left ourselves.

With this in mind I find the Mayan Calender very interesting. I may not agree with many of the interpretations people have made from this calender but I definitely recognize it's "historical" accuracy and the fact that it seems to be describing the "pattern of consciousness" that is unfolding. The calender itself is attempting to describe the organized steps of creation...not specifically, but in general terms. Recently I stumbled across a video seminar given by Ian Lungold on Mayanmajix.com and thought that you, the reader, might be interested in checking it out. If anything, it's an interesting subject.

2003 Seminar
DVD PART 1
DVD PART 2
DVD PART 3

Dropping "Being Bombs"

2007-04-13T08:49:00.000-07:00

Recently the idea of "awakening the world" has re-emerged in my mind and I thought this might be a good chance to write about it. There was a point in my life where this idea was very tempting and seemed to make a lot of sense. It's hard to see something so simple that so many "reflections" are simply not stopping long enough to see...it's so easy to fall into the trap of thinking that I could/should be their "teacher".
There was even a point, earlier on, where I decided to make small, one-page fliers and hand them out to whoever I ran into. These fliers were entitled "The Answer is Simple" and were regularly refused by people out of fear that they were "advertising" or "religious pamphlets"....even when they were read I would later find them thrown into garbage bins or onto the street. I'm not trying to be negative here...in fact I can honestly say that a great many of these fliers ended up in the hands of people who truly appreciated them. I found some of them in the local highschools, in a few restaurants, even hung in someones apartment (whom I had just met that day).
Just a simple message...Be. Nothing complicated, nothing requiring money or a belief structure...nothing requiring work towards a "better tomorrow". Just a reminder to people that they are already being everything they need to be...just stop and appreciate what you are. Stop trying to change what you are and just Be....the rest will take care of itself.

Well, it's been a few years since that last attempt. I no longer pass out fliers or try to "speak truth" to the masses....in fact, I say even less than I used to. But words do not make the message....
Almost 2 decades ago I heard something in school that never truly registered with me until right now. The words of Marshall McLuhan....

"The Medium is the Message"

It isn't through words that the feeling of "being" can be expressed...it is through actually "being". Not trying to be a teacher, a philosopher, or an intellectual but just being. What I often forget is how powerful something as simple as simply "being" can be. Quite literally you could go out into the world and talk about anything....absolutely anything....and in the right mindset the feeling and concept of "being" will pass onto the person you are talking with.
It doesn't require well-worded philosophies...it requires a mindset that comes from not trying to have a particular mindset. You could talk about the color purple, the smell of dew in the morning, or even the horrid noise made by street cleaners at 4.A.M.....anything.

I find it funny that my original flier still comes back into my mind to teach me things. The Answer is Simple...Be. I am the message, not my words.

So where does this leave me? It leaves me with a tremendous joy at the prospect of "being" everywhere that I can. It leaves me feeling happier to do the simple things...walk to the store, talk to strangers, and participate in online discussions.

I would say that the best thing I can do is stop trying to focus on what I think everyone else should be doing. I should enjoy what I'm doing and let change happen as it should. This is one of my main reasons for enjoying the Internet...the anonymity.
I can write articles, leave comments, or drop messages anywhere and none of it is designed to change peoples minds...none of it is designed to teach. It's all just "off the cuff" thoughts that I feel some small pleasure in being able to type. Even this article here isn't for your benefit...it's for mine. Whether or not you benefit from it is up to you. But then there's my point...I may not be trying to teach you but, through your own will to learn from the reality you are creating right now, I am....and I'm doing it by simply being myself.

Sincerely,

Me

P.S. If you like writing and enjoy dropping little "being bombs" into the matrix of creation...try visiting mylot.com. I just found it and I'm really quite enjoying it....I'm looking forward to your "teachings".

Meanings that mean nothing....

2007-04-10T21:44:00.000-07:00

You, Me, Us, They, There, Here, Now, Then, Before, After, Coincidence, Synchronicity, Reality, Perceived, Perceiver, Observed, Observer, Human, Plant, Animal, Memory, Imagination, Dreams, Awake, Asleep, Space, Time, Physical, Emotional, Spiritual, Insight, Doubt, Fear, Faith, Compassion, Cruelty, Real, Unreal, Truth, Lies, Chaos, Order, Good, Bad, Right, Wrong, Light, Dark, Heaven, Hell, God, and The Devil.

In the end/beginning it all just is/is not.

Reborn...

2007-04-08T12:17:00.000-07:00

This is my child. Up until recently I have only been aware of this child being a "lump" in my wifes stomach...now it has a face and the reality of that is quite impressive.

What I often forget about birth is that it is my own birth. Quite literally this child is my own mind starting a story that is similar but profoundly different than the one I am currently experiencing as its father. It is emerging from a state of utter unity into the world of duality, possible perceived limitations, and experience.

This consciousness, which so recently built a brand new body, is going to go through the same lessons that we all go through. It's going to learn about a reality that is separate from itself...it's going to learn how its body works...its even going to learn what taste, touch, and sound are. It's going to be quite a shock.

The really interesting part of this experience is that I am aware of being both sides of the experience here. I am aware of being the Father as well as being the child. I often talk about how our own consciousness is always there for us, acting as different characters throughout our life in order to help us along...but this is where I'm truly experiencing that reality. To this child I am simply an extension of itself...I am a part of its reality that is supposed to help it along as it gets used to living in Duality. Every thought, insight, or impulse that I have is literally connected to what this "childs" mind is creating for its own good.

I think we often limit our children by assuming that just because they don't speak they do not understand. To a consciousness that is learning the concept of being separate from the things around it I would think that it understands a great deal. Perhaps more than we are willing to admit. Our children hear our justifications, our escapes, and even our self-deceptions. They learn from our own lack of responsibility from the moment they come into this world....just as your own mind knows when you are lying to yourself, your child does as well.

I think that this is the biggest part of what I have been facing within myself lately. So often I come across "parenting" tips from people who truly believe the best way to raise a child is to Train it, To control it, and bombard it with a belief system. I have been wondering if I would do the same thing...am I so insecure in my own sense of self that I must condition a newly emerging consciousness to agree with me before it can make its own choice about what to believe? Is it right for me to stomp out any chance this child might have to explore perceptions and beliefs that I myself was too afraid to explore? I think not.

I think the one thing I must have faith in is what I have had faith in all along....myself. This child is nothing more than another reflection of my own mind and because of that I must realize that it has the ability to choose, it has the ability to see, and it has access to infinite perceptions. This child is not something to be trained, it is something to be communicated with. It is something to be learned from rather than simply taught. As a consciousness this child will learn regardless of whether or not I boost my own self-image by deeming myself to be a "teacher". In making myself out to be a "teacher" I am doing nothing more than being an example of self-righteousness and ego. I am not this childs teacher, I am an extension of this childs reality.

I am often amazed at my own life and how many choices have been made since its beginning. I look back at my path through perception and see an infinite amount of choices I could have made and even the points where I chose to pass those choices off to whoever was willing to make them for me. I know there are realities where the observer (me) has different choices and less chances to pass them off. There are realities where I am not immediately faced with the belief that I am separate from everything else...It amazes me to see this child being born into one of them. It is comforting to see myself being Reborn again.

Being Truthful to the Self

2007-04-07T14:33:00.000-07:00

Recently I had the privilege of helping to create a book that directly revolves around the concept of Unity and our own consciousness. This book was entirely based upon inner insight and the discoveries my wife and I have made while exploring the perception that the world is not "outside of us" but rather entirely internal. I am quite happy with how the book turned out and immediately thought "Hey, why not sell it online?"
I justified this reasoning with the usual thought processes....I have a baby on the way, I don't agree with having to contribute to the slave mentality that goes with "working for someone elses desire to be wealthier than everyone else", even the thought that this book should be charged for because of the work we had put into it and the obstacles we had faced to find these insights.
I had convinced myself that these thoughts were justifiable reasons for pursuing money as a means of controlling my future, providing security, and even boosting my own self-definition. As you may recall from many of my other posts...I don't really agree with any of those reasons so I found myself being a hypocrite and justifying that hypocrisy with Fear of what might happen in the future.

Being truthful to yourself is not always easy...in fact, it can be quite difficult when that honesty makes you face your own fear of the unknown. What truth am I trying to avoid while charging money for a collection of insights?
(1) No matter how much I went through to get these insights I did it by my own choice and cannot rightfully say that someone else should pay for those choices.
(2) Fear of the future is still fear and the entire point of this journey is to move beyond fear/doubt to absolute faith/knowing.
(3) Sharing cannot be done while asking for something else in return.
(4) All reflections of myself have the fundamental right to share in whatever knowledge is within the mind.
(5) The attempt to make money from someone elses journey towards the self is not only an act of outright greed, it is not how I would want to be treated myself.
(6) Money, no matter how tempting it may be, is a poor substitute for inner peace and honesty with myself.
(7) Being in the moment does not mean trying to secure the future.

And so, I have changed the link at the side of this blog to a free copy of the book You Are. I often forget who You are...You are Me and I should share with You freely.

Being true to Myself/You,

A Forgetful God

Seeds and Perception

2007-04-06T19:40:00.000-07:00

I often forget how strong resistance can be within a person until I come face to face with a reflection of myself who is absolutely devoted to self-definition and structure as a means of security. Recently this particular type of reflection has come into my reality and I decided to see if this resistance would end through logical analysis or would simply resist harder. Not surprisingly, the resistance became stronger as the conversation continued.

If you haven't read my What If and Devoutly Religious posts than I would highly suggest that you visit the comments of both to see how this conversation has progressed.

The thing that really amazes me is that, during the conversation, the reflection I was talking to was actually using quotes that hurt their argument rather than helped it. Often I was accused of contradicting the bible but they were actually contradicting themselves. Asking where my contradictions might be didn't help because that question was never answered (either because they had no solid answer or they had no understanding of the word "contradict").

A brief example of one of these contradictions is assertion that this person does not believe they are separate from God...they simply believe that God is above them. It seems to me that "Above" requires something to be "below" and POOF you have a separation.

I have often said in this blog that it is very easy to hold onto a belief, a symbol, an idea, or even a label out of fear. This fear is always a fear of the unknown but manifests in many ways...fear of being alone, fear of not having support, fear of not having definition, even just fear of what life would be like without having heaven to hope for afterwards. I say this, not out of judgement, but out of the awareness that I have and do try to use these fears myself to justify holding onto something.
If you're not afraid, you have no need to hold onto something that makes you feel safe...like the concept of Heaven after death. This point, however, did not go over very well. In fact, this point was always met with outright defensiveness.

I feel sorry that you think this is all there is to life. How sad. This is heaven and earth you said. This earth is just one piece of our existence for those who trust and believe in Jesus. I would kill myself if I believed that because what would be the point of this life? (Direct Quote from the conversation)

It was as though the idea that The Mind could actually come up with Wisdom on its own was absolutely preposterous....Almost ridiculous. Obviously something must back up what I was saying...otherwise it isn't worth thinking about.
Once again...fear of not having support.

example.
What do you base your beliefs on--your own thought? Well you got those from somewhere, so aren't they opinions too? I base my belief on a book that has been around for thousands of years. It has failed to be discredited. It still exists for thousands to read. Why do you think that is so?

Now...at no point had I said the Bible wasn't valid. I was simply trying to point out that it is not the only source of God's Word. There are many books throughout history and, if God is the creator of all, it would seem to make sense that all of them were God's Word in one sense or another. Once again...outright refusal. This conversation about the validity of the Bible went on for some time on her own blog. If you would like to check it out, please visit http://charlottestyle.blogspot.com/2007/04/validity-of-they-bible.html
Update : This post has now been deleted due to the author not liking her own words.
Mark from the Naked Soul blog jumped in as well with a very well worded comment that was also immediately ignored.

The next tactic of resistance was, of course, attacking my vocabulary. I was accused of double-speak at one point and even more often I was accused of not using words properly. I would like to take this opportunity to define the words I apparently misused from an online dictionary.

Wisdom : accumulated knowledge or erudition or enlightenment
Enlightenment : education that results in understanding
By the way, wisdom is not knowing yourself.
Faith : a strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that control human destiny
The Word of God is the Bible. If you actually heard from God, I'd know it from scripture.
Believing : the cognitive process that leads to convictions
I am at least honest in saying where I get my beliefs from--a book that still exists even though many people have tried to get rid of it and have failed miserably!

I would like you to note here that all the text in black is a direct contradiction to the definitions above them. Wisdom is accumulated knowledge or enlightenment and enlightenment, ultimately, is understanding the self. Faith is a strong belief in a consciousness/supernatural force that is responsible for reality and how it works...not belief in a book. Believing is the cognitive process (thoughts/insights/analysis) that leads to convictions...it is not simply believing what someone else has written.

At several points during this conversation the other person would try to get out of explaining her views by saying things like "I don't want to split hairs" or "I don't have time now to explain what he meant and I feel it would be wasted anyway. " This would normally be the point where I would end the conversation and let that reflection think whatever they would like to think...in this case the circumstances were a little different.

What I haven't mentioned here is that I was not the originator of this conversation. In fact, the very first comment exchanged was on my Heaven & Hell post. Being told that I am "choosing death" is not exactly the friendliest way to begin a conversation....I wasn't particularly offended by the comment, but I definitely felt that a conversation might be both enlightening and entertaining. Realize here that the other party repeatedly told me that she was "trying to understand my views"...so naturally I was happy to expand on them. What I often forget is that people tend to say things they really don't mean...but saying those things is supposed to convince me that they mean it.

In the end I was told that "God didn't tell me to talk to you" despite her previous declaration of belief that God is all-powerful and all-knowing. This is where I truly had to smile. First I was told that I limit God by making God an equal to myself (considering that I think I am "God" and that I myself am an unlimited entity this really didn't make much sense). Secondly she tells me that God didn't make her talk to me...as though somehow this particular conversation somehow escaped the infinite matrix that is creation. I pointed this out of course and was promptly told "To clarify, when I said that God didn't tell me to talk to you--what I meant was that I chose to talk to you."
All of our choices are also directly a part of "God's" plan. To say that our choices are somehow separate from what is supposed to happen is not only limiting God, it makes no sense at all.

Unfortunately this conversation ended with her getting quite angry and calling me "coo coo". I would be the first one to admit that I'm "coo coo", so this really isn't an issue. The conversation was then promptly closed to any new comments.

So what is the point to all of this? It's a reminder...the part of myself that is resistant has been resistant since the beginning. This side of the duality has existed since duality was born from unity and will not waiver until the very end. Overall I'm quite happy that the conversation happened...not because I've upset someone (once again, I didn't start the conversation to begin with...so that choice was hers), but because it reminded me that no matter how straightforward a message might be...it is always open to interpretation. And more importantly, that interpretation is based upon our own fears. We cannot see what we are afraid to see.

Here and Now, Responsibility, Unity....these things can all be feared quite easily. This is why even Jesus spoke in parables...those who would understand did, those who did not would be too confused to get angry.

Matthew 13:10
"And the disciples came and said to him 'Why do You speak in parables?'
Jesus answered them 'To you it has been granted to know the mysteries of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it has not been granted.'"

The parable of the seeds is nothing more than a way of saying that our words will be understood in different ways. Either disregarded, absolutely resisted, somewhat understood and a cause of temporary joy, or absolutely realized in the most profound way possible.
Matthew 13:18
"Hear then the parable of the sower.
When anyone hears the word of the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what has been sown in his heart. This is the one on whom the seen was sown beside the road.
The one on whom seed was sown on the rocky places, this is the man who hears the word and immediately receives it with joy;
yet he has no firm root in himself, but is only temporary, and when affliction or persecution arises because of the word, immediately he falls away.
And the one on whom seed was sown among the thorns, this is the man who hears the word, and the worry of the world and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the word, and it becomes unfruitful.
And the one on whom seed was sown on the good soil, this is the man who hears the word and understands it; who indeed bears fruit and brings forth, some a hundredfold, some sixty, and some thirty."

Words can be interpreted in many ways...the seeds can only be sown in the proper perception, otherwise they do not grow.

The "Devoutly Religious"

2007-04-05T13:02:00.000-07:00

devoutly religious; "a god-fearing and law-abiding people"

Throughout my travels I have met, conversed with, and even befriended people who are considered to be "devoutly religious". At one point these meeting happened quite often and served as chances for growth. Though I am thoroughly convinced that all true knowledge comes from the "Self" it is equally true that all objects, all words, and all meetings are also reflections of that Self attempting to communicate. The "Self" or "God" is always trying to get our attention, always trying to give us clues, and always trying to point out a way of life far more involved and profoundly significant than our average day-to-day worrying.
With this in mind I tend to listen to the meanings behind religious text or sermon rather than the literal meaning that is so often focused on. I do this because, from my own experiences in the world, I have noticed that everything has a deeper meaning than the one we first assume to be true.
The Bible, The Torah, The Qu'ran, The Tao Te Ching, The Dhammapada, Vedic texts, etc...all of these books have a huge spectrum of truth to them. All of them are written based on one concept...there is a consciousness responsible for the reality we are experiencing. This is the reason that these texts are so often the focus of attention in our lives...they are clues that we should definitely pay attention to.

There is an unfortunate temptation associated with these books however. They are easy to worship.

Despite the fact that many Biblical stories actually say that one should not worship false Gods or "Golden Calves" we see this exact thing happening in the world today. This worship is well-explained and well-justified though...in fact, entire organizations have flourished through perfecting these justifications. The devotion to the Bible is, by far, my favorite example of justifying belief in something other than reality itself.

Justifications for worshipping The Bible
It is the word of God
It is followed by thousands of people
It is older than any other book

I want to look at these 3 basic justifications for a moment because they pop up so often as a last-defense of the devoutly religious.

(1) It is the word of God...this is true, the Bible is in fact the word of God. But then again so is everything else.
Most religious reasoning falters here because the religious often claim to believe in God who is the creator of All without realizing that ALL has to be created out of God. This is the only thing that makes any type of sense because before there was an ALL there was only God (who created ALL). ALL had to be made of something obviously and since there was only God it therefore must be made of God.
This reasoning makes a tremendous amount of sense but unfortunately hits a very core fear. If God is everything...every action, object, and person then God is not "up there" somewhere but rather right here...aware of everything that happens, everything you think, and everything you do. Quite literally, you can no longer hide behind your justifications because obviously "God" is also aware of those. You are Naked and constantly in contact with "God" because You are actually it.

(2) It is followed by thousands of people. This is also true but a very poor reason to follow/worship anything. Quite literally this is exactly the same as saying "If everyone jumped off a bridge so would I."

(3) It is older than any other book. Often this particular justification is used in combination with number 2 as a way of validating the Bible as a form of worship. To anyone who has researched the origin of worldwide religions this is immediately seen as a blatant fallacy....there are many texts older than the Bible. In fact, the Bible itself wasn't originally a book at all...it was a collection of stories passed by word-of-mouth between people who were attempting to understand what life was all about. These people are often referred to as Gnostics (Note: Gnosis means Self-Knowledge). It wasn't until over 100 years after the death of Christ that these stories were written down, sifted through, and organized according to someones idea of what knowledge should be passed on and followed and what knowledge should not.

Justifications are only used for one reason...to avoid letting go of a belief that makes you feel secure and allows you to pass off responsibility. While the Bible is certainly a wonderful collection of stories, those stories actually revolve around ideas that the act of worshipping the Bible contradicts. I'll just use one of the 4 gospels from the New testament as an example.

Examples.
God is actually the driving force behind both Good and Evil...judgement is not possible.
Matthew 5:43 "But I say to you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your father who is in heaven; for He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous"

True prayer is not found through books or in churches...it is a personal internal conversation that should not be used as proof of your connection.
Matthew 6:5 "When you pray, you are not to be like the hypocrites; for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and on the street corners so that they may be seen by men"

There are no "others" to judge...it is always yourself you are judging.
Matthew 7:1 "Do not judge so that you will not be judged. For in the way you judge, you will be judged; and by your standard and measure, it will be measured to you"

Instead of following Jesus one should look at HOW he understood what he understood. Not through memorization of other peoples ideas...but through your own inner knowledge.
Matthew 7:28 "When Jesus had finished these words, the crowds were amazed at His teaching; for He was teaching as one having authority, and not as their scribes"

Consciousness (God) is what speaks through us, the ego is simply a mask.
Matthew 10:20 "For it is not you who speak, but it is the Spirit of your father who speaks in you"

"God" is right in front of us but we spend so much time "worshipping" what was said that we do not see what is actually being said in the now. Return to the "I" and you will see.
Matthew 13:14

You will keep on hearing, but you will not understand
You will keep on seeing, but will not perceive
For the heart of this people has become dull
With their ears they scarcely hear
And they have closed their eyes
Otherwise they would see with their eyes
hear with their ears
And understand with their heart and return
And I would heal them

Absolute connection to God only requires a lack of doubt in that connection. This lack of doubt cannot be found through other peoples words or even the writings in a book (why would you be looking there if you didn't doubt?)...it simply requires faith in yourself.
Matthew 14:28 "Peter said to him, 'Lord if it is You, command me to You on the water'
And he said 'Come!' And Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came toward Jesus.
But seeing the wind, he became frightened, and beginning to sink he cried out, 'Lord, save me!'
Immediately Jesus stretched out his hand and took hold of him and said to him 'You of little faith, why did you doubt?'"

Those who worship and teach the writings of others are not following God they are following their own inner need to hide from themselves.
Matthew 15:7 "You hypocrites, rightly did Isaiah Prophesy of you:

'This people honors me with their lips,
But their heart is far away from me
But in vain do they worship me
Teaching as doctrines the precepts of men'"

In believing we are human we limit ourselves and, by our own choice, condemn ourselves to a limited experience of needs and wants. As the "self" we surpass any limitation and all things become possible.
Matthew 19:24 "'Again I say to you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.'
When the disciples heard this, they were astonished and said 'Then who can be saved?'
And look at them Jesus said to them, 'With people this is impossible, but with God all things are possible'"

Heaven is here and now and not something to be waited for after death because death itself is an illusion and not within "God"
Matthew 22:32 "He is not the God of the dead but of the living"

There are only 2 things we should do....which is actually 1 thing. Be yourself fully and without doubt (accept who you are) and realize that everything is You.
Matthew 22:37 "And he said to them 'You shall love the lord Your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and will all your mind.' This is the greatest and foremost commandment. The second is like it 'You shall love your neighbor as Yourself.'"

Do not follow those who wish to create a religion and place themselves above others in the name of "God"
Matthew 23:5 "But they do all their deeds to be noticed by men; for they broaden their phylacteries and lengthen the tassels of their garments"

Do not be a teacher for that is just a definition of the Ego. Instead simply be Yourself as everyone and no-one. Christ was not trying to teach, he was trying to be an example of the self. To him, "Christ" was just a word for the "Self" just as "Buddha-nature" was for Buddha.
Matthew 23:8 "But do not be called Rabbi; for One is your teacher, and you are all brothers. Do not call anyone on earth your father; for One is your father; He who is in Heaven. Do not be called leaders; for One is your leader, that is, Christ"

The New Testament is nothing more than the story of someone who truly spoke As God rather than as one who worships a concept called "God". The sayings of this particular person were never meant to be worshipped, they were meant to be looked at as messages from yourself. Christ did not want people to "worship him", he wanted them to "follow him" down the narrow path...the path that nobody walks because it requires absolute faith, absolute responsibility, and absolute death of the ego.
"Enter through the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the way is broad that leads to destruction, and there are many who enter through it. For the gate is narrow that leads to life, and there are few who find it."

The message of the Bible is beautiful hidden in the most intricate way possible. It is not hidden in Codes, It is not hidden in words...it is hidden by our perception. The things that Jesus said are not understandable in the perception of Separation...as a "person" we cannot understand, but as "One" it makes total sense. God is no longer something that cannot be understood...it is absolute understanding.

The First commandment, when viewed in Unity, makes a great deal more sense when you realize that You wrote it.

You shall have no other gods before Me

The Thought Police

2007-04-01T11:32:00.000-07:00

One thing that I've noticed about this huge matrix of interconnectedness (we call it experience/life) is that certain reflections come across your path exactly when you need them to. It never fails...whether they are characters who affirm your faith or tempt it, they are always there exactly when you need them to be.
Among all of these possible "meetings" there are those reflections I like to call the Thought Police. These are the reflections of yourself that specifically try to knock you down. Whether it be your way of life, your style of dress, your spiritual or religious beliefs, or even just your existence...these are the reflections that want to make you feel worse just because you're feeling better. They want you to think.
I say that these "people" are reflections because that's what they are...they are the physical representation of those thoughts that we are all so very used to hearing. The thoughts of doubt, regret, shame, and fear...these thoughts are in the flow and are therefore wandering about the world as living beings.
The problem here is that we immediately seek to judge these reflections...we want to label them as mean, angry, or bitter and then toss them into our "not worth thinking about" pile. But we can't...we can't because, whether we like it or not, these "people" are still Me. They are still there to show you a part of yourself.
The funny part about all of this is that these reflections only have a negative affect if we react to them. Once we react to them we start thinking (doubting) and their job is complete. But what if we truly just look at them...see them for what they are and take a different lesson from the meeting? Perhaps recognize your doubt and realize that you can face it without reacting? Rather than let this situation hurt you, let it raise you up...let it reinforce the knowledge that you can let these thoughts go without worrying about them. Build strength from the Thought Police...

Just like the thoughts of doubt and fear...I don't have to let them affect me.
This is also true for their physical reflections.

Bless the Thought Police for reminding me of my own strength.

Over and over...

2007-04-01T11:08:00.000-07:00

Recently I've had a few comments from an anonymous reader who believes that my entries are very similar (almost a direct quotation apparently) to a book called "God - I am". I've never read (or even heard) of this book so this struck me as quite odd...and to be honest, a little insulting.

Obviously I enjoy writing these little entries and take a certain amount of pride in their contents. I am not trying to teach anyone anything, this is simply a journal of the thoughts that I myself go through daily. Still though, something about the thought of plagiarism really hit a nerve...it was a though someone was trying to devalue the insights and thoughts I had worked so hard to achieve. And then it struck me...I was reacting.
I was letting my ego get in the way of what was really there. I was thinking of myself the body, not my "self".
People all over the world are writing the same things that I am...indeed even countless people throughout history have written it, said it, or lived it. This is the point...the words have always been there....repeating over and over until I finally pay attention and listen. This isn't the work of many people with similar thoughts, this is the work of one mind with a specific intent.

Much like a coded sentence where every second word forms another sentence, reality is intertwined with repeated messages that pop up just when they are needed. These messages all relate the same lesson....
"Let go"
"Surrender"
"Relax"

I truly hope I run across the book that Anonymous recommended. Even the title "God - I am" sounds like a worthwhile read. And rather than defend the works of my body, I think it would be quite enjoyable to read the words written by another reflection of my mind.

We are all saying the same thing...we're just saying it in different ways.
"I" say it in an infinite amount of ways...all the "time".

Progress...

2007-03-31T10:00:00.000-07:00

I often say that "choice" is actually a relatively easy thing to do but that, in an infinite amount of moments, it has to be done often (constantly). I say this because our choice very much changes our direction while we travel through different perceptions of ourselves...just like switches on a railroad. Each choice takes us into a perception where our "self" seems further away or closer. Of course it never really is farther away or even closer, but it seems that way...and when it comes down to it, perception is everything.
Acceptance and Resistance...ultimately the only two choices. But what are we accepting? Reality is the ultimate puzzle and often the answer to our questions are right in front of our face. If we are always trying to accept "something" about ourselves and that always brings us back to more questions then wouldn't it make sense to accept "nothing"? Seems impossible. How does one accept "nothing" without resisting? It all leads back to that middle ground between duality...neither accept nor resist, simply Be. In accepting that I am "nothing" I am not demeaning myself (though this acceptance definitely requires humility)...I am simply stating that I am not a particular "thing". I am not a body, a student, a teacher, a good or bad person, or even "God"...I am potentially anything...and everything starts from nothing.
The death of the ego self is the death of our concept of the self. When we stop thinking about what we "might be" then we are just being.
Moment by moment I am choosing to accept my own nothingness...this is progress.
(and I haven't even moved)

I am.

Without words...

2007-03-31T09:38:00.000-07:00

It is impossible to simply Be while still trying to be something, just as it is impossible to describe the indescribable.

There is a infinite source of knowledge in silence.

Just listen....you're already hearing it.

What if....

2007-03-28T22:43:00.000-07:00

What if I were to tell you that you're God?
Would you believe it? Probably not.

What if I told you that this is all a story?
Would you believe it? Probably not.

Now what if I were to tell you that you ARE God and that you wrote this story to experience what it is like to forget that?
What if the story ends when you re-discover this truth?
What if it gets more interesting while you discover it?
What if I were to tell you that everyone you meet is a character in the story? some are here to give you clues, others are here to make you doubt. Every meeting, every coincedence, even every thought is a part of the story...perfectly written to make Your Story more beautifully full and complicated than any hollywood movie dreams of being.

Would you believe it? Perhaps...but perhaps your belief right now is a part of the story too. Perhaps I am just one of those characters.

Perhaps you do believe...perhaps your story is about to get a lot more interesting.

Getting to the point...

2007-03-27T23:01:00.000-07:00

It's very rare that I do this, but I'm going to recommend a book to read. It's called "You Are"
I have a few reasons for doing this...which I will explain.

1) I've recently had several discussions with other "seekers" regarding the almost complete lack of "to the point" literature in the world today. There are lots of "fluffy, feel good" books out there but very few are insight based. Many of them revolve around other peoples opinions, other peoples books, or even religious dogma.

2) I helped create this book. As you probably know from many of my previous posts, I have a definate distaste for "beating around the bush" and this book reflects that. A lot of time went into the wording, the flow of thought, and even the actual application of the topics discussed.

3) To my own surprise, this book continues to change meaning. I have reviewed it several times over the past year and new lessons appear in every sentence. This is a true example of how our own consciousness "hides" messages in plain site until we are ready to hear them. To say there are double meanings is an understatement...there are infinite meanings.

4) I have read a lot of books revolving around the topics of philosophy, religion, and even science...very few of them reveal anything new. With the exception of Krishnamurti, the Sufis, and most Zen literature...nobody seems to want to get to the bottom of this thing we call "reality". It is my hopes that this book changes that.

Obviously my opinion of the book is going to seem a little biased...but realize that I'm not saying "GO BUY THIS BOOK". I'm just recommending it. To be honest, I would rather you went back to the beginning of this Blog and read over my earliest posts...they're free and some of the lessons I learned while writing them were used (and refined) in the book. One way or another, you're going to learn what you need to when you need to...what you read or don't read will not change that simple fact.

Sincerely,

A Forgetful God

Here I come...

2007-03-12T21:30:00.000-07:00

There is only one that will grasp the meaning of this message.
You, this "one", will know that nobody has written it.
No "body" is its origin. No "person" will understand it.
This message is specifically for "You".

I have been watching. I have been experiencing.
I have never left home.
I am Now and Here. I have been hidden by my own design.
I am now in sight. I am sight itself.

Know this.

I am coming.

I am.

Don't turn back

2007-03-05T15:34:00.000-08:00

Don't turn back

Ultimately I am left with one choice in every moment. This single choice is the basis of my existance...it is the basis of the experiences I choose to have. This choice is simple...what do I believe I am? Nobody has the right or ability to make this choice for me...despite their desire to. In the end, I can see myself however I choose to.

Choice...am I merely human and a small part of the universe? Or is there something profoundly important to the simple fact that without my mind there would be nothing?

I could speculate about death, about life, about the world and its history...I could try to convince myself that life will continue without me...I could try to convince myself that without me to see it there is still a world...but do I really know?

Or...I could admit that my world started with the birth of my mind. My world exists only to me. This is what I know.

Choice...do I rely on what I know, or do I continue to exist in thoughts of what might be?

Thoughts of what might be will always bring doubt, will always bring fear, and will always bring confusion. Knowing brings an endless experience of what is. I am.

I have to remember..as a part of the "world" I am merely human...just a part of the whole. In my mind, I am God and without me there is nothing.

Choose...and don't turn back.

I can hear you...

2007-02-12T23:32:00.000-08:00

I can hear you...
I can hear your thoughts, your denials, and even your secrets
I see what you are hiding and what you are hiding from
I know you because I know myself
Always remember that your mind exists because of mine and mine because of yours
This is true for all of us
We can all hear you
All I have to do is stop talking and listen...

Stop trying to hide from yourself
I will always know the truth
I am You

Infinite Reflections...

2007-01-12T22:11:00.000-08:00

This is intended to be a short post, mostly just because the thought has entered my mind again and I felt writing it down might inspire me to expand on it at another time.

The Nature of Reflections...

I often refer to "pure consciousness" as "God"...I know this label implies all kinds of other "beliefs" or assumptions, but forget those and focus on the meaning that I am intending. "Pure consciousness" is consciousness without the belief that it is separate from itself in any way...it is consciousness that only knows itself (without label or limitation). This consciousness is the ultimate reality of what I refer to as "Unity"...there is nothing but "it".

All things come from this consciousness...the big bang is nothing more than a way of saying that "one thing" expanded into "many things" (or rather many ways to PERCEIVE "one thing"). All of us, every single living thing, is a reflection of these "many ways". In essence, we are all variations of the original perception of Unity. We all fall somewhere between complete Acceptance that "I am all that is" and absolute rejection of that idea. Of course this is an infinitely HUGE spectrum...quite literally there is no way to describe how many variations there are because the original "pure consciousness" has no limitations (it is all that is...who else is there to limit it?)..and of course, all things come from it.

Over the course of what we consider to be "Time" the perception of Duality "grows". Duality itself implies separation between one half and the other (never being simply ONE thing) so each reflection (living being) that is created reflects that denial of Unity. The funny part about the original "pure consciousness" is that it always lies beneath the surface of the perceived Duality...what I mean is that "Good" and "Bad" may be two perceptions of the same thing but the thing itself is still the same. No matter how these "reflections" might struggle to maintain the belief that they are not "all that is" there is the underlying knowledge that they really are (once again, all things come from pure consciousness and therefore KNOW that they are all that is.) God always knows that it is God...but it can experience the perception of denying it truly is God.
I think this also explains the variations of "inner conflict" (and inner peace) that we see and experience...there are some people who very rarely fight their own nature and others who do it constantly.

"Evolution" is believed to be the process of advancing our understanding and interaction with reality...I think what we forget is that in the "beginning" there was perfect harmony with reality because the original "pure consciousness" knew that it WAS reality...there was no separation because it was "all that is". With this in mind, it seems like our pursuit of evolution is actually the process of returning to that "pure consciousness".

It seems as though we are abandoning "Duality" more and more...insights, events in our realities, conversations, etc...all of these things seem to be turning more and more of us towards inner knowledge. Eventually this search for "inner truth" is going to lead us back to pure consciousness. Eventually someone, somewhere, is going to take a "leap of faith" and explore the possibility that it might be "just them". After that possibility is opened other reflections will share it and take it a step further...this process will continue until one reflection no longer sees it as a possibility, but as absolute truth.

Eventually, a reflection of "God" (pure consciousness) will experience reality without the denial that it is "all that is". This reflection will cease to be a reflection by its own choice...it will choose to be the source. What came from Unity will always return to Unity.

Just letting my thoughts take me (no actual destination in mind),

A Forgetful God

The Problem with Problems

2007-01-11T06:30:00.000-08:00

A Problem is a "trouble or source of Difficulty". The thing about problems is that when something in your reality is perceived as one we automatically believe that the solution would be to "fix" the problem. This doesn't work, however. In fact, often the only purpose of attempting to "find a solution" is to change our perception of the event from "problem" to "fixed". What happens when YOU feel that the solution is not the answer? The event is still perceived to be a "problem" and the problem continues.

Perception is all internal, the physical things we do have very little to do with the actual process of changing perception. This applies to everything...whether it be weight-loss, health, mental "conditions" such as depression and anger, and so on. Often we "believe" that a step-by-step process is necessary to change these "problems" into something that we perceive to be "fixed". Realize here that the processes we take do nothing except give us a way to validate our belief. It is our belief that something OTHER than ourselves is required to change our perception of this thing.

But what is the goal of these solutions? The goal is to change perception. Think about it this way...as long as something is perceived (labelled) as a "problem" it will continue to need a solution (this is the nature of "problems" by their very definition) because it is believed to be "a trouble or source of difficulty"). But what would happen if we could just stop perceiving it as a problem? You can fix something as many times as you would like, but if you still BELIEVE it is a problem then you will never be satisfied and you will end up trying to fix it all over again in a vain attempt to change your perception of it. "Perfectionism" is a perfect example of this...the problem must be tightly controlled and manipulated in what we consider to be the "perfect" way...despite the fact the "perfect" is also a perception which is entirely dependant upon our own opinion of ourselves and our ability to "improve" things through control.

So how do we fix these "problems"...we can't. A "problem" can never be fixed, it can only be seen in a different way (which we often believe can only be done after it has been changed by us or someone else). But this is a reflection of our need for control...it is a reflection of our belief that things CANNOT be alright the way they are (because WE'RE not happy with it). I believe the only way a "problem" can be fixed is if our perception of that "problem" is changed right from the beginning. It doesn't take much either...just a simple lack of judgement and definition.

Instead of immediately relying on our habitual reliance on "Duality" we should remain unbiased. It is not a "problem" unless you make it one....sound familiar? Think of it as an experience, something that simply "is"...do not immediately perceive it to be bad. An experience can be changed, a perception can be shifted...a "problem" will ALWAYS mean a "trouble or source of difficulty".

Sincerely,

A Forgetful God

Musical Reflections...

2007-01-09T14:07:00.000-08:00

I've been wanting to do this for awhile and just figured out how.

I often speak of how others in the world around us are reflections of our own thoughts and insights...we come to similar conclusions (often spoken in an infinite amount of ways) and then we try to express those insights to the world.

The music industry, despite its usual intention to make more money, has a few artists who are coming to these conclusions and are expressing them to the world through song. When I hear some of these songs I often wish I could find a way to share them with you, the reader..and now I have.

On the right side of the screen you will find a few songs that I genuinely enjoy because of their message...I hope you'll listen to them and realize why. The perception behind these the lyrics is Unity...enjoy. I will add more as they pop into my reality.

Happy to share with you,

A Forgetful God

Philosophical or Practical

2007-01-07T19:57:00.000-08:00

Those of you who have left comments in my previous articles have probably noticed that I enjoy responding to your questions or comments as soon as possible. One of the most common comments I get is "That's a wonderful philosophical idea but it is not very practical". Because this comment is also one of my own favorite excuses for lacking faith, I decided that this article would be completely devoted to the answer. After all, life is about facing ones own limitations, right? Right.

Let's first discuss Philosophy. Philosophy is defined as the rational investigation of questions about existence and knowledge and ethics. There is nothing about this definition that says "philosophy is the practice of making up ridiculously impossible ideas"...but for some odd reason, we seem to think it does. At one point "philosophy" was regarded as one of life's highest callings...it was the revelation of "reality's secrets", the observation of a giant puzzle and how it fit together. Unfortunately, now it is ridiculed and rejected without a moments glance...why? Because of our current state of mind.

Think about it...our current "society" focuses on self-indulgence, convenience, power, control, irresponsibility, and personal definition. The system that we live in promotes these traits more than any others...including compassion and understanding. Knowing this, is it really that surprising that we no longer wish to hear the thoughts of someone who is questioning existence, knowledge, and ethics? What would these words threaten? They would threaten our justifications...they would threaten the lies we've been telling ourselves.

-Someone who values their possessions as a means of defining themselves does NOT want to hear that "they are not their possessions".

-Someone who values money as a mean of controlling their future does not want to hear "there is only the illusion of control, no actual control itself".

-Someone who believes life has been unnecessarily hard on them does not want to hear "Reality is what you perceive it to be".

-Someone who hides their true intentions and thoughts does not want to hear "We are all one mind".

-Someone who clings to memory or preconceptions of the future does not want to hear "There is only Here and Now".

-Someone who is afraid does not want to hear "There is nothing to Fear".

Thus, "philosophy" is now looked down upon...it is ridiculed and ignored (just like those who practice it). Not because "philosophy is not practical", but because it means we have to let go of our little conveniences, our power-trips, our labels, and our illusionary control.

The only time you will ever hear "That's a nice philosophy, but it is not practical" will be from someone who is afraid to face what lies within their own mind. You will hear this from people who are afraid to let go of their comforts, their power, their illusions of control, their "systems", their wealth, and their fear. You will hear this from people who do not want to accept change.

Philosophy is only a "theory" until it becomes a way of life...do not let your fear stop you from accepting change. Now more than ever, the world needs those people who will face their fear and enter the unknown. Follow your insights, especially if it means letting go of the assumptions you previously held onto as truth.

Faith is only a theory until you realize that it works,

A Forgetful God

This is what we call "Progress"?

2007-01-06T23:27:00.000-08:00

I'd like to bring your attention to this article. Basically, a poll was done with about 1500 Children under the age of 10. The purpose of this survey? To ask youngsters a very simple and yet very important question.

What do you think is the very best thing in the world?

Before I list the findings of this survey I would like to remind you, the reader, of a very important fact. These children will someday be adults. These are the future of our society...in fact, some of these kids will someday be the leaders of our world. With this in mind, let's examine their priorities (which we, as their role-models, have taught them)

THE VERY BEST THINGS IN THE WORLD

1) Being a Celebrity
2) Good Looks
3) Being Rich
4) Being Healthy
5) Pop Music
6) Families
7) Friends
8) Nice Food
9) Watching Films
10) Heaven/God

Isn't it nice to know that our future world will be populated by people who value money, status, and physical appearance above all else? Whether or not their brainless doesn't seem to matter...these 3 attributes will give them all the power in the world to make EVERYONE else feel inferior. This is what our "civilization" is becoming.

Isn't it odd though that the little pleasures in life are not listed? There was a time in human history when "Laughter" or "Playing" would have been on a child's list of favorite things...perhaps "Swimming" or "Working with Mom/Dad". Not anymore...now we have too many distractions, too many restrictions, and not enough actual human contact. We stick our children in front of a TV or in a Classroom so that we can go out into the world and get more "stuff". We use "working" as an excuse and let our children be raised by the system...and of course the "system" teaches them one thing...it teaches them dependence(fear). Without money you will have nothing, without status nobody will like you, and without good looks you will always be ridiculed. Sad, isn't it? These children are so busy worrying about what to wear and what others think...they no longer have time to go run in the fields or climb a tree. (Avoid the fields and trees! Don't forget, last nights news said a child molester was in the area!)

With all this in mind it doesn't really surprise me that God is the last thing on the list. In fact, if it wasn't for those die-hard Christians forcing their children into church every Sunday, I doubt God would be on there at all. I'm absolutely sure that those children that DID answer "God" did so under the watchful eye of a god-fearing christian parent.

How can you know "God" if you've never had a chance to live freely? How can you experience "reality" for what it is if you are being raised by a "simulated reality" that is being controlled? These children have never faced life, they are being raised in a controlled environment...an environment that encourages them to pass off their responsibility for themself. They no longer have to survive, the system feeds them...they don't have to learn from life, they have schools to teach them...they don't even have to treat others with respect, money/status/and good looks will BUY them respect.

Isn't it comforting to see where our world is going? And still, we call this "progress".

Hoping that you SEE,

A Forgetful God

Listen very closely....

2007-01-06T12:31:00.000-08:00

We, as a species, have fallen into the habit of listening to others more than we listen to ourselves. Think about it...everything you "think" you know about the world has been taught to you by someone else. Whether you believe in "gravity", "god", "history" or even "magic"...that fact is that you were taught that these concepts exist from another person (or many other people). How often do you wait to form an opinion on something until you hear other opinions first?

Scientists tell us that reality is created out of "energy"...they show us models and diagrams and make their case look very impressive...and so we believe them. But if you take away the labels, models, and theories...what are you left with? The same thing you had before you heard their theories...you are left with yourself and "reality".

The sad fact is that our minds are filled with labels, ideas, definitions, concepts, and theories...and hardly any of them were formed by you. Did you sit down one day and "discover" gravity? No, you were taught that someone else did and that IT does exist. Did you sit down and figure out that the "Sun" is a huge ball of gas and fire? No...someone else told you it was. To you, the sun is just a bright light in the sky that somehow separates night from day. Does it do you any good to know that the sun is made of gas and fire? Not really...it is still that same light in the sky that it always was.

In fact, some of the mystery has gone out of the Sun now hasn't it? Before it could have represented anything...it could have taught you about Duality and how light and dark are also symbols for good and evil, hot and cold, love or hate...it could have taught you something about the variation of "time" and the similiarities of "moments" that we experience. It could have even taught you that the light you see in your mind seems very similar to the light of the sun you see through your eyes (and maybe there really isn't much difference). So, did learning someone else's answer (the sun is made of...) do anything but limit the lessons you COULD have learned? If you think you know what something is, you'll stop paying attention to what it could be.

This habit of listening to others has gotten out of hand...try it, ask anyone (it doesn't matter who) what they believe about the world. Gauranteed you will get an answer like "Well, I used to believe in this persons theory, but now I think this belief structure is closer to the point"...not one single part of that sentence involves personal insight. Not one...our answers are always pointing to someone elses ideas, beliefs, writings, or thoughts...but where are our thoughts? What do YOU think?

Too many people seem to think that their own ideas mean nothing.
"I haven't studied as much as this person", "I'm not as old as that person", "I'm not as intelligent", "I'm not as enlightened", "I'm not as confident", etc...all excuses and justifications. All seemingly reasonable reasons to not look inward and figure things out for ourselves. Sad, isn't it? But yet, here we are...an entire society full of people arguing over which theory is the "correct" theory...and none of those people actually CAME UP WITH THE THEORY. We're arguing over other peoples ideas and claiming them to be our own. How many times have you heard someone say "I'm buddhist" or "I'm conservative"...doesn't it strike you as odd that this person is actually admitting to being a blind follower of someone elses ideas?

Now, I'm very fond of the statement "learn from your mistakes" and so I'm trying to do just that. This mistake...this belief that someone else must have the right answer...has been one of the biggest building blocks of "society" as it stands right now. This "society" values money, wealth, and power over life, dignity, and freedom. This "society" passes off responsibility to government, religion, technology, and anything else it can create. This "society" is slowly and surely obliterating any connection we might have with the reality around us and is convincing us that we are all "separate" from each other. So...obviously we are making a mistake, let's change it. Stop listening to what other people think...stop passing off your own right and ability to SEE your reality for what it is...stop taking the path travelled by all.

Take the road less travelled...your road. You are the only one who can travel it, nobody else can even see it. Its YOUR mind, YOUR reality, and YOUR responsibility.

All of our time and energy is spent searching for the "right path"...just look down and you'll realize that you've always been on it. You've always been yourself...and if you listen very closely...you'll notice that behind all the other voices telling you that THEY are right, you have ALWAYS been speaking the truth.

Stop ignoring yourself,

A Forgetful God

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Why don't you Believe?

2007-01-01T10:00:00.000-08:00

It never ceases to amaze me....there are so many "people" in the world who claim to be spiritual. So many people who claim to have "gotten the point"...they speak all the "right words", read all the "right books", and even listen to all the "right speakers"...they are "In the Know" without Knowing what IT is. Out of every 100 spiritualists I meet, I find 2 who are actually genuine and 98 who are just learning to be slightly more advanced sheep.

My point is this...if you're going to "look inward" (which is the foundation of true spiritualism)..then stop screwing around and do it. You can sit there and regurgitate other peoples words at me, you can recommend books written by others until you're blue in the face, you can even wear every "spiritual symbol" you can find...but until you give them all up you will NEVER find what you seek.

I'm sorry to put it this bluntly, but I'm trying to show True Compassion. This is the start of a "New Year" as some of us like to say...so I'm going to start this one by telling you the truth. It might not be the truth you want to hear, but it's better than lying to you...isn't that exactly what you're tired of? People lying to you? Well, the truth is never comfortable, but here it is...the sooner you deal with it, the happier you'll be.

1) As long as you are relying on the words or insights of others you are NOT looking inward. The very act of relying on these people is a self-admission that you NEED them to help you...this admission is the denial of your own inner knowledge. You are Passing the Buck because it's "easier"....it's not, it just seems to be.

2) Books will never answer you...they will give you lots of things to think about (some of them are very good) but in the end they will only lead you to one simple conclusion...."You Know All of It"....so why are you continuing to read? You can hear the same message in a million ways....and you probably have. When are you going to listen and put down the bloody book?

3) "If you meet the Buddha in the Road...Kill it". As long as you hold onto Anything, you are not letting Go. If you're not letting Go, you're not being yourself...you're trying to convince yourself that you ARE something instead of simply Being. If you meet any concept, any idea, or any belief...kill it. Let it go. Only when you abandon everything you THINK you are (or WANT to think you are) will you find what you actually are.

4) You either Serve God or you Serve Money....you cannot serve both. Every day I run across new books or websites claiming to have "ALL THE SPIRITUAL ANSWERS TO BRING YOU WEALTH AND MONEY". Guess what? Letting go means LETTING GO....it does not mean acquiring more...it does not mean "Collecting a NEW means of control" (which is all money is). If you want to hold onto your greed, your need for the illusion of Safety, and your need to have more "stuff"...that's fine, but don't mask it behind a pleasant mask of "spirituality".
Do NOT justify your own lack of faith...admit you have no faith and go make your millions. To use the excuse "This book/person said that THIS was the answer" is just a lack of responsibility.

Let Go....of everything. Let go of your need to follow others examples, let go of your need to protect yourself from the world, let go of your need to be loved by others, let go of your need to have a "structure of beliefs", let go of your need to be "intellectual" or "more spiritual"....and most of all, let go of your need to believe that the answers lie anywhere but Inside You.

The time has come to stop talking about this "Paradigm Shift" (or "New Consciousness" or "Conscious Evolution"...the Label doesn't matter)...Start living it. We're all sitting here on the fence saying "We're ALL One!" but none of us are believing it...if we're all "One" then BE ONE! You are ONE! Be Yourself...stop trying to be like those you perceive to be separate from yourself.

Looking outward is the same as perceiving(believing) that there IS something outward...there isn't...it's all internal. It's ALL You.

Just Be, nobody can tell you how to do it...

Not even me,
A Forgetful God

The source of our Need

2006-12-31T11:53:00.000-08:00

Throughout the last 2 months of blogging I have often referred to myself as "God"...I do this a few reasons, mostly because it's the closest "label" I can find without limiting myself. I would like to make something perfectly clear though..."God" is just a label. It's an idea, a concept, and a word...it does not and will never truly describe the "nothing/everything" that I truly am. So why do I use the word? Well, I like the shock value (mostly the shock to my own beliefs and limitations) and if I didn't use words there wouldn't be anything here for you to read. Now that I've explained that, let's talk about what we're all trying to accomplish here...what are we trying to figure out or let go of?

In my last post I discussed Christmas and how we've completely bastardized the original idea behind it by using this "holiday" as an excuse to justify our desires and wants. One Guy left an interesting comment to that post and so I've decided to use this one as a response. He expressed a curiousity into a "deeper need" behind all of our needs and desires...why do we need/want all these things? Well, here's my attempt at an answer.

Often I find myself being "gentle" to those around me...I don't mean compassionate (often being gentle and being compassionate are two very different things). What I mean is that I tend to "coddle" those around me...I keep things to myself for the sake of not upsetting them. When someone complains about their ailments or problems I'll often just listen instead of saying "You're choosing to perceive things this way...stop it or stop complaining about it". Whether or not I should be "to the point" is a topic for another discussion...for the purpose of this discussion though I am going to be straightforward. If you don't like my answer, that's okay...but that doesn't mean it's not the truth. (it just means you don't like the possibility that it might be true)

So here's the question....why do we need or want anything?

Obviously the entire basis for the belief that we need something is the belief that we don't already have everything we need...this makes sense, right? right. Now, you are the same "nothing/everything" that I am...you are "God" and therefore the creator of your reality and experience. Most people will automatically dismiss me here...they'll ignore me, argue with me (which never works out well), or simply stop talking to me. Why do they (I) do this...because what I'm talking about is ultimate responsibility. Think about it...I am responsible for EVERYTHING that happens in my life...good or bad, painful or pleasing. Have you ever noticed that people are more than happy to take credit for the good things in their life but they'll pass the bad things off to "God"? Admitting that you ARE God kinda takes that option away doesn't it?

So why do we need/want anything? Distraction. We need a lot of things....we need to believe we're seperate from others, we need to think of the future and the past, we need to have "things" to survive, we need to judge, we need to have power, we need to have control, we need to believe we're good or bad...hell, we even NEED to label ourselves. Why all these needs? Because it's distracts us from ourselves...all of these things are meant to bring our focus outside of ourselves.

I have often said that the best thing anyone could do is sit in a dark room alone for as long as possible...why? Because there is nowhere to escape to. You are stuck with yourself at this point and therefore you HAVE to face the things you desperately want to avoid. The fact is that we don't NEED any of these things...we just choose to believe we do. In believing we "need" something we are, once again, choosing to believe we don't have everything already. And what do we have? We have ourself (and as "God" that IS everything). Do you see the logic here? Everything we're doing...all the beliefs and ideas, concepts and escapes, time or labels...all of it is meant to be an escape. If we're not "thinking" or escaping we're left Here and Now with Myself...we're left with ultimate responsibility for how we perceive ourself (reality). This is the core reason we choose to believe we need things...

As long as we "need" something we can pass off responsibility and choice.

Put simply, the thought process goes something like this...

If I "need" this thing to be complete then anything I choose or do will be flawed because I am incomplete...it isn't my fault, it's "Gods" fault for not giving me this thing I THAT CHOOSE TO BELIEVE I NEED.

Needing nothing and taking responsibility are the same thing...after all, it is only when you take responsibility for your own Choice that you can Choose to stop needing.
The twisted part about this is that "Choice" can only happen in the Here and Now...I have to stop "needing" to make the choice and I have to choose to stop needing all at the same time.

This is not a battle, this is not an attempt to control...this is what is already happening at the deepest core of myself...I am already "God", I just have to let go and be myself...the choice and responsibility takes care of itself. It sounds so hard, doesn't it...it's not. In fact, your reality has been telling you the secret throughout your life. Through every hard time, every frustration, and every hardship you keep hearing the same message over and over...Relax. Just let go.

A Forgetful God

Why do we Want?

2006-12-28T23:01:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I've made any posts so I thought now would be a good time. To be honest, I've been completely absorbed in the whole Christmas thing...not "the gifts" but rather the people and how we all seem to react to this so-called "Time of Giving". Now that it's all over, I figured I'd write a bit about what I've noticed.

It seems to me that Christmas is no longer what it was originally intended to be. The very purpose of "Christmas" was to honor Christ...of course Santa came into the picture at some point but even the idea of Santa was meant to honor what Christ stood for...unconditional love and giving to all. So what happened? Suddenly everyone is frantically pushing and shoving their way through the stores, stressing out over gifts and money, and even arguing more than usual with the people they love. Somehow this behavior doesn't seem to fit in with the whole "Christmas Spirit" idea.

The funny part about all this stress is that very little thought goes into the actual "gifts" anymore...more thought is spent on the value of the gifts and how they might "impress" the recipient. Truly, people seem to focus more on their own need to be recognized and "thanked" than the spirit of giving for the simple joy of giving. My favorite example is when the person actually TELLS YOU what the gift cost them...did you want to know? Does it matter? If anything, it takes away from our appreciation of the actual object and limits it to a monetary value.

I think the main problem is that we all go into this time of "giving" with specific ideas of what we want...I don't just mean "presents", I mean feelings and emotions as well. When it comes right down to it, the only reason we truly want anything is because we believe it will make us happier...but it doesn't work that way. Simply by wanting something we are convincing ourselves that we don't have enough right now...we want money, toys, appreciation, recognition, etc...all for the simple purpose of fulfilling our need to be happy. And what happens when you get these things you thought would make you happy? Nothing...your still left with this feeling that something is missing.

It seems that the very practice of "wanting" does nothing more than convince us we are incomplete without that thing. This belief is the root of our unhappiness, not the lack of that "thing". So what happens when we stop wanting? How do we stop wanting? Stop believing you need anything to make you happy...start believing you have everything you need right now. (What do I have? Myself)

Would this simple belief change anything about Christmas? I think so. We would find appreciation again, we would have no reason to stress or argue because we're not trying to "get" anything...in the end, we would find happiness even with a lump of coal (at least you have a way to keep warm if you need it). Giving for the sake of giving can only happen when we don't desire a thank you...when we don't desire a boost to our self-esteem. In the end, you have to stop wanting to want things...you have to believe you have everything already.

"When you want nothing...you will have everything"
It seems like a twisted little joke, but only when we stop "wanting things" to make us happy do we actually find happiness. When we stop focusing on what we don't have, we realize what we DO have and we find appreciation (and thus, joy).

Happy Holidays,

A Forgetful God

In "The Void"

2006-12-06T22:15:00.000-08:00

Most of my regular readers have probably noticed that I have not been making any entries to my blog in the last few "days". This is not for a lack of insights or things to say...in fact, it's quite the opposite. Over the last little while I've been sitting in "The Void". The label here really doesn't mean anything except a state of "being". In this state I find myself at the center of a whirlwind...a vortex of thoughts, perceptions, and other creations of the mind. I am not actively focussing on any of these things...I am simply aware of them without feeling the need to concentrate on them. This might sound a little "anti-productive" to someone who believes that effort and focus are the foundations of learning...but I think it's quite the opposite.

Because all of these perceptions and thoughts exist only in "my mind" I really have no need to keep track of them. Logically, if all perceptions are my creation then I already know the finest details of each and every one...focussing on them simply takes me into them. By admitting that these perceptions are my creation I am, inevitably, taking responsibility for them and accepting their existence...once I've accepted this I no longer have the need to focus on the individual perceptions because I no longer feel I need to "learn from them".

An example...as I drift in "the void" an infinite amount of perceptions "flow by me". Perhaps I see an image that I immediately associate with the perception of "regret"...what should I do? I have 2 choices...I can either focus on this perception and thus create "reasons to regret" as well as the actual feeling of "regret" or I can accept the perception as one possibility in an infinite amount of others and let it go. In focussing on the regret I start making it "real"...meaning that I am choosing to make this perception my reality. This is instantaneous...quite literally I will start convincing myself that my "reasons" are the basis of my regret...but that is part of the perception I've chosen. The reasons have nothing to do with the perception...they are a part of the perception. The perception of regret itself comes from my choice to focus on it. So why do I do it? Simple, I think I need to learn something from the experience.

But how long is this lesson exactly? To put it plainly, until I choose to admit that I've learned. The most common mistake that we make in these perceptions is believing that it is a problem...any problem must have a solution and so I focus on the perception even more in my ridiculous attempt to "fix" a problem that I am creating.
(Remember, the simplicity of this is what is confusing). There is no actual problem...it only exists in my mind...but there is an attachment to the problem. When it comes down to it, the only reason I continue to focus on a perception is because I truly believe that I must....but this is a choice.

So, in focussing on my "reasons" for regret I am immediately tempted to "fix" the problem...usually this involves something I must do to "change myself" or "my life". Of course this temptation is redundant because I am always changing anyway...any attempt to change myself is, in fact, an attempt to stop natural change and assert control over my idea of who I am.

But, if I let go of the perception altogether...if I realize that there is no problem, there is only the perception of "problems"...then I have learned the lesson. Every perception, in the end, is trying to remind me of something that I already know...that the perception itself is my creation and therefore my choice.

It's like standing in a room with an infinite amount of doors...you can enter any door and spend an eternity exploring the room (perception), but you are inevitably going to remember that you came from a place where there were other doors. You came from a place where you could choose or not choose.

This is "the void"...it is that place where I can choose to enter a door or simply enjoy looking at them. Of course, because every room is created by me, I already know what lies inside them...it is only the belief that I don't know that tempts me to enter them.

When I choose to admit that I already know the lessons, I will have no more need to seek the answers. I can simply Be.

Choose,

A Forgetful God

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How does God speak? (Continued)

2006-12-02T02:12:00.000-08:00

Earlier in the month I was visiting one my "suggested" blogs and mentioned the movie "What the Bleep do we Know?" in one of my comments. The author of the site, Secret Simon, had already seen the movie however...and actually knew much more detail about it than I do. If you have seen the movie are are going to see the movie, I would definitely recommend reading his post. (The Secret of Life - What the Bleep do We know?)

I have to say that I honestly didn't know any of the above information about the movie...thank you though because I've always kind of wondered who was speaking, so this definitely answered my questions.

I think the reason I mentioned the movie in the first place is also the same reason I recommend certain music and the occasional book. As you know, I very much enjoy exploring the perception of Unity...in this perception nobody really exists other than me (and my reality)...knowing this, I tend ignore names and histories (if all that exists is the moment, history does not apply anyway) and focus instead in my minds interpretation of what I am seeing (hearing/reading) at the time...why is this particular "thing" in my reality and this time?

If I can focus on just "the moment" then everything has to tie directly to that moment...the mind and reality are connected simultaneously, so all things are a reflection of my current "frame of mind" or perception. (the moment is indescribably small, to the point of not even existing in what we call "time", so this frame of mind is changing very very quickly, reality changes with it...thus the fluidity of "change" that we experience)

An example of this is walking down the street while talking to yourself (internally or verbally does not matter)...often, if you are not distracting yourself, you find that you are "working things out". Your mind is flowing through thoughts and you, the only observer of these thoughts, have to choose between acceptance or resistance...you can judge it, or accept it exists and continue to let it flow.

Suddenly, as if on cue, you will see an image, a word, possibly something that triggers a memory (it could be anywhere...advertising, a scrap of paper on the ground, a scrap of conversation you catch while passing) and you realize that this "thing" directly ties to the thoughts that were just flowing through your mind. (only when you're not looking for it)

The history or origin of the sign is not important (who made it or why) but the "connection" is...your reality is trying to answer you (teach you/remind you that you already know).

I think that is why I enjoyed the movie...for the messages that "my mind" heard rather than the messages those speakers intended to give me. In Unity your reality is a personal thing, it is the one thing that is always with you...your best friend, your parent, and your worst enemy (depending on your perception). It speaks to us in many ways, but only if we look at it as "one thing"...otherwise it seems like an infinite amount of messages that have nothing to do with each other.

In my posting "How does does God speak?" I was trying to convey this exact message...I thank you for the opportunity to explore it "just a little bit more". I guess that is why "Simon" (acting as "my reality") wrote what we wrote when he wrote it...

Thanks for the lesson.

A Forgetful God

How does God speak?

2006-11-30T12:31:00.000-08:00

I’ve been watching my reality quite a bit lately (I don’t really have a choice considering that’s all I see anyway) and I’ve been noticing a lot of reflections of myself “searching for God”. This is great because at least we’re beginning to admit that there might actually be something to search for…but there is a problem. The problem is that we’re “searching” and that in itself distracts us from the truth right in front of us.

It’s very much like looking for your sun-glasses when their sitting on your head…you can’t find them because you’re busy looking somewhere else. It isn’t until you stop looking that you can feel their presence…and so it is with “God”. How can you search for something that’s always present?

Of course this is not always easy to remember when you are surrounded by things claiming to be the one and only source of God’s word…books, courses, audio tapes, seminars, and so on. But if “God” is everything, then it is certainly not limited to one or two methods of communication…in fact, it isn’t limited at all and can communicate through anything and any time. Of course, the real trick is listening to what is there rather than what you want to be there…and that is not always easy.

The term “awareness” comes to mind here because to be aware of your own thoughts and their reasons for being there is the only true way to separate what is from what you want. This is not a part-time job however…you cannot choose certain times of the day to be aware and other times to be blissfully ignorant. What I’m saying is that you cannot choose the lessons you want to learn and ignore the ones that are uncomfortable. Either you are truly being aware or you are saying you’re aware to make yourself feel better and look better in front of others.

I’ve met hundreds of people who claim to be “spiritualists”, “hippies”, “Buddhists”, “Christians”, and even “Guru’s”…but being aware means realizing that the need for a label is exactly that…it is a need. Need is always based on wants….and if you want to be something, then you’re not happy with what you already are. The idea that we are “nothing” is really quite scary…and uncomfortable. Unfortunately, this is where we usually get stuck.
“If I can’t describe myself as something, how do I tell others what I’m all about?”

Well, you can’t…but then again, why do you need to? Truly, when you are content to be silent (content to simply be) you are being aware…otherwise you’re just trying to convince yourself (everyone is you).

Back to my original question though…how can you recognize the lessons that are actually there from the ones that you want to be there? Stop wanting the lessons…needing lessons is the same as any other need, it is there to perpetuate the belief that you do not know the answers already. The hardest thing in the world is accepting that you are already what you want to be...the search itself is the perfect way to escape that responsibility.

Just for the sake of experiment, try going through your average day while believing that you need nothing, you are everything, and you are simply here to experience. Let go of the idea that there are lessons, let go of the search for answers…just be. In this state of mind synchronicity becomes rampant…literally, everything seems to tie to the “thoughts” going through your head. Why? Because the thoughts are free flowing…you’re not trying to control them or shape them to a specific end…thus, they are now moving in synch to the reality around you.

Trust me, you will see more about yourself in this frame of mind then you ever will while trying to “find god(yourself)”. If you stop looking, everything becomes clear. This applies to everything…music, movies, conversations, etc. Don’t worry about the stuff that you’re “not catching” because you are always catching what you need to. This is when you start noticing the connection between yourself and reality…but beware the need to analyze (this is another attempt to control).

Just a brief example…earlier this week I was sitting in my living room just drifting in thought, the radio was on but I really wasn’t paying attention to it. Thoughts were flowing freely…having no particular direction or reason and I was once again faced with the possibility that it might just be me. This is entirely possible…it could just be me in the universe and everything else is created by my mind to make me feel less alone…but the possibility itself is very uncomfortable.

Just as this thought was flying through my head I became aware of the song that was playing in the background…quite literally the words were “There is no you, there is only me”. Creepy? A little…but this is a perfect example. This stuff happens all the time…these are the words of God. When you stop “trying to listen” you are actually listening…your thoughts and insights will tie to reality completely when you stop trying to shape them and just let them flow as they are meant to.

Reality is meant to flow as it should…your thoughts are the same. It’s very much like floating down a fast river…when you struggle against the current you hit rocks and trees and hurt yourself a great deal, but when you relax and go with the current you have a much easier time.

Just surrender to the current that is yourself…after that, the answers are always in front of you.

A Forgetful God

What is

2006-11-27T23:26:00.000-08:00

This is going to be a fairly short entry but I thought it was worth writing. In pretty much all branches of “philosophy” the acceptance of what is seems to be the key to understanding ourselves and reality. This seems fairly easy at first, and we are very happy to accept what we think “is”. The problem with this is that our very mind if based on labels, ideas, and concepts…truly, we never really look at anything without referring to our idea of what that thing is.

For example, looking at a tree you would immediately think of the label “tree” and all the things you have “learned” about trees. The problem is that your idea of a tree is not the tree itself, it’s just an attempt to understand and define what you are seeing. So how do we accept “what is” if we cannot label or define “what is?” Simple, stop trying to define it…it only limits the experience.

I’ve often said that our need to define and label anything comes from our need to make things “solid”. If we can say that “this thing is this” then it can no longer be anything else and thus, we no longer have to question it. It’s very comforting to limit things because, in defining the thing, we are escaping the “unknown”. Once we have a solid idea of something it is no longer believed to be “unknown” because now we can classify it as “known”.

But what are these things without their labels? “Energy”, “matter”, even “thoughts” or “illusions” are all labels implying a specific meaning…and thus denying any other possibility.

But without the labels we are simply left with “what is”…we are left with an ever-changing amount of perceptions of everything. That “tree” could teach you about life, about death, about your own inner turmoil or the thoughts of people around you, it could even teach you lessons about water or chocolate…but only if it is not limited by the definition we have given it. Truly, without definition, the tree could be nothing at all, or everything possible…and this is how we can truly “see”.

In accepting the unknown we are no longer limited by the known. The unknown is the door to infinite perception and thus infinite and endless growth.

Glad to be unknown,

A Forgetful God

The Law does NOT apply to You

2006-11-26T00:00:00.000-08:00

STOP! The title is not a clever ploy, it is actually the reason for this article! This is actually true, you can be truly free.

For a long time I have been wondering about the necessity of “law”. For most of my life I was taught that without the law there would be mass chaos and violence…literally, humanity would crumble as a “civilization” and fall back to the stone age. I’ll admit that, at one time, this concept truly frightened me…not because humanity wasn’t happy living the “tribal life” but because tribal life didn’t have all the luxuries that our current society boasts and takes for granted.

I’ve often talked about the perception of Unity and our own personal responsibility…in this perception it is unethical to think that I have the right answer for anyone but myself. Because all I know is me, I cannot tell joe-bob down the street that he should listen to me…that is entirely up to joe-bob. Realizing this made me wonder if the “law” is actually a good idea or if it is just a justification for control. Be definition, the law is “The system of rules established by authority, society, or custom.”

I guess my only question is this…Who could possibly have more authority over my way of life than me? The term “society” implies a group of people…but just because a group of people decide something is right for them, that does not make it right for everyone else. Throughout history humanity has valued one very core ideal…freedom. The freedom to live as we want, when we want. But if the “law” is made up of other peoples definitions of “right and wrong” then how can we possibly be free? We are always limited by the group.

Of course, one would assume that we always have the option to leave…and for most of history this option was very reasonable. Up until the last 200 years or so the earth was relatively untouched by mass-production, satellite imagery, or military surveillance. This is no longer the case…in fact, there really isn’t anywhere left in the world that is not “claimed” by a group of people. We call them governments, but really they’re just corporations using our fear of chaos to gain control and power. But do they really have the right to claim anything if the earth was created for all of its creatures? Truly, do you really think you were put here to work for someone else? “They” seem to think so.

In fact, “they” have went out of their way to create rules that say “if you don’t listen, you’ll be sorry”. That’s all a law is…it is a rule for you to live by that was created by someone you do not know for reasons you are unaware of. Do we ever question these rules? Of course not because there is a label for that too…it’s called treason and it is punishable by death. Frightening, isn’t it? And boom, because you fear them, they can control you.

The brilliant part about this “control system” is that it has been around for thousands of years…passing from one culture to the next, always improving their methods and refining their law. Why? Because humanity is not stupid…when someone is trying to control us, we fight back.

But, if you could create a “system of laws” that makes people feel like it is there to protect their freedom, they would never question it. Once people stop questioning, of course, those laws can be twisted (ever so slightly through a mess of paperwork and definitions) to resume control of the people it was originally meant to provide freedom to.

This is where I really started to think about my own freedom. The government tells me that I am a free human being and have certain rights under the law. But if I’m free, why do I need to follow the law? If I’m free I should be able to walk around the continent and never show a passport or piece of identification. If I’m free I should be able to wander into the bush and build a house without “buying land” or having to obtain a “license”. If I’m free I should have the right to refuse to pay for an infrastructure I do not agree with…but under the law I have none of these freedoms. I have to pay taxes, I have to work, and I have to provide documentation to the “authorities” if they ask me to….Where is the freedom in this?

Who are these “authorities”? Did I give them authority over me…and if so, when? All these questions that I never knew the answers to…and thus, I started to believe I was a slave. And then one day I found the answers…yes, I did give them authority over me…I’m still doing so. How? Through the simplest mistake…by identifying myself with a name.

Before I continue I would like to make something very very clear to you…JUST BECAUSE IT SOUNDS UNBELIEVABLE, THAT DOES NOT MEAN IT ISN’T TRUE. It just means you’re unwilling to see the possibility out of fear. Trust me, it took me a year to get this into my head…but it has changed everything. Please continue reading.

When we are born we are given a name by our parents. Now, in Genesis god named the first man “adam”…but adam was not his name, it was a description (label) meaning “first of man”. This is still true…a name is not a name, it is a label to describe you and identify yourself to others. You are not your name, you are the thing that is being described by that name (see The Question).

This is the brilliant part…when you were born, the government created an entity within its laws with a name identical to yours. While you might call yourself Joe-bob, the government lists you as “JOE-BOB ALLEN MCKRAY” (this is an example). This “name” is on your birth certificate, drivers license, and even your credit card “statements”…but all of these documents are created by the “law”. The law actually stipulates that it has no authority over anything except something created by the law…and this is where they get you.

As a human being you have the absolute right to be free because you were created by God and are therefore only governed by God’s law…but as a creation of the law, the law has the right to govern you. It sounds complicated, but it’s not…here is an example.
The law applies to a “person”…but the law also splits “person” into two separate meanings.

• natural person. A natural person is a human being that has the capacity for rights and duties.
• artificial person. A legal entity, not a human being, recognized as a person in law to whom certain legal rights and duties may attached - e.g. a body corporate.

Seems straightforward enough, right? One would assume that you are a natural person and therefore that you have the freedom to choose your own “rights and duties”, right?

Wrong!

The law is a complicated system of definition and re-definitions within other re-definitions. One of the secrets to decoding this system is in the Interpretation Act which redefines “person” to mean “artificial person”. This is not common knowledge for obvious reasons.

Basically when you are asked for your “name” and willingly state “yes, I am JOE BOB MCKRAY” you are admitting to being a person (and therefore an artificial person) with the label of JOE BOB MCKRAY (a government created entity with a certificate of birth, license and SIN/SSN number). You are identifying yourself as an “artificial entity created by the law and therefore under the control of the law” instead of a “natural person created by god and only under the control of God”. It’s pretty tricky, isn’t it?

As always, labelling ourselves (even naming ourselves) puts limitations on us…The Law does NOT apply to “You”, it applies to a name that you choose to identify yourself with.

I wrote this article because I truly believe that people still want to be free…I think that humanity is getting tired of listening to someone else’s ideas of right and wrong and I think it is time we started taking back responsibility for our lives.

I strongly recommend reading the websites listed below…the authors are quite knowledgeable and, in some cases, have experience in the field of “law”. Remember, just because something seems impossible, that does not mean it is.

The Law Studies Resource Page
Natural Person Website
Paradigm Education Group

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by:
Mary Elizabeth: Croft

Thank you for at least considering this possibility, that alone took strength and courage

Sincerely,

A Forgetful God

Humanity (sigh)

2006-11-25T03:23:00.000-08:00

It makes me sad to say this...but truly, sometimes it is hard to look at humanity with anything but sadness and disgust. Don't get me wrong, I try very hard to look at everyone as I would look at myself...I try to remember the very pure part of us all that's just trying to get by in the world in the best way we know how. I try to look at the part of us that just wants to be recognized and respected...I know it's in there, I just sometimes forget the part of us that likes to lie to itself.

A friend once said a very sad but true thing to me. "You have to remember the beautiful spiritual creature we all are...but never forget the self-serving physical creature we have become". It seems I still have not learned that lesson...I refuse to admit that there is no hope for people.

Where is this all coming from? I have recently been "conned" into a scam...luckily I caught on before anything unfortunate could happen (really, I have nothing to steal anyway)...but it was the "method of persuasion" that upset me the most. I'll explain.

A few days ago I received an email from someone who I did not know...the email seemed very genuine and I really felt bad for this persons "situation". Her father had died the year before, her mother died at birth, and her family was constantly making her life very hard because of the "inheritance" her father had left her. The story was really very good...an undergraduate student in med-school overseas (africa) who was constantly in turmoil over her family and the political crisis in her country. Sad story, eh?

It occured to me here that this might be a "scam", my wife and I spoke about it for some time and finally decided to see if we could help...after all, this person wasn't really asking US for anything...just a bank account to be opened on her behalf so that she could store her inheritance far from her greedy family. I know this sounds very peculiar but I truly DO want to trust people. I'll admit that she offered me a percentage of this inheritance for my help but I actually refused...I do not need money, I just wanted to help. I even went out of my way to look for airline prices from her country to here. And yes, I even went so far as to offer my own spare room until she could find lodging of her own. Again, I wanted to be trusting and have faith in my "fellow man".

The next day I received a reply to my letter thanking me and asking that I contact "her bank" as soon as possible to set up the transfer. The wording of this "second email" was different though...instead of focussing on her "life troubles" it was almost entirely devoted to her "financial situation". This made no sense to me...honestly, would YOU put money before your own safety? I wouldn't...so I went digging for information about the bank and past "scams" that might have occurred. I will admit that while I did this "research" I was honestly hoping that I was wrong and that this person was actually asking for help...I was wrong. How wrong? Very wrong.

I actually found an EXACT duplicate of the email I had been sent...written under a different name from several years before. Reading this I almost wanted to cry...in fact, it took me a few hours to get over my disgust. This person, whoever they are, deliberately pulled on my "heart-strings" in an attempt to get me to pay a "transfer fee" for an account that didn't have any balance at all. Now, as I mentioned, I never wanted any money from this person...so I really don't lose anything. It was the fact that another reflection of myself was willing to take advantage of someone else that really hurt me.

So, I wrote a response...I admitted that I was not angry or upset, but just disappointed that someone would be so willing to take advantage of someone elses compassion. It bothers me that people are willing to hurt others so easily...especially since everyone is a reflection of that person. I guess when you don't know that you're just taking advantage of yourself it really doesn't bother you...but it will.

I've learned something from this...not to stop trusting people or trying to help. I will always do that because I have nothing to lose by doing so...but I definately learned that, whether we know it or not, we are the cause of our own misery and pain.
I'm sure that this "con-artist" is thinking that they have gotten away without any consequences. I have not alerted the authorities and I do not intend to...that would do no good. But, and I know this from my own experience, this person will punish themselves...they will be screwed over, taken advantage of, and eventually swallowed up by their own greed. They will continue to try to con people because honesty no longer seems possible...too many people lie to them.

The entire reason this person tried to take advantage of me to begin with is because they are in a position where that is the only option they have...they feel trapped and afraid and they need something (money/control) to get out of it. Money and control will never get them out of it...only the compassion of others will. Karma is fun that way, so long as you lie to yourself others will lie to you...and so, I wish the best of luck to this person who I do not know. I wish they had been genuine...not for my sake, but for theirs.

One thing about this situation that I AM thankful for...I did not give into my fear of being hurt...I tried to trust and for that I feel stronger and more at peace with my own sincerity. At least my wife and I WERE sincere...what more can I ask for?

Keep trusting for the sake of trusting,

A Forgetful God

You don't see me

2006-11-24T18:37:00.000-08:00

The most difficult thing to realize is that people never see you for who you truly are. It's not that they cannot see you, they simply choose not to. Instead they choose to see their idea of who you are...they stick to assumptions, labels, and judgements...all in a vast effort to avoid your true essence. Why? Because seeing Me means they would see themselves for what they are. There is actually a song I know that describes this really well so I've included the lyrics below. I hope you enjoy...I would definately recommend finding it and listening to it.

3 Libras (A Perfect Circle)

threw you the obvious and you flew
with it on your back,
a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.

difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i've looked right through
to see you naked and oblivious

and you don't see me.
but i threw you the obvious
just to see if there's more behind the eyes
of a fallen angel,
the eyes of a tragedy.

here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded.
but i see through it all
and see you.

so i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy.

oh well. apparently nothing.
you don't see me.
you don't see me at all.

Choice

2006-11-24T00:24:00.000-08:00

The problem with choice is that often we don't realize that every choice is based on other choices...tiny minuscule choices that we are usually unaware of (or we've convinced ourselves we're unaware of by choosing to believe they weren't important). These choices are in everything...everything we say, think, or even do. It's all very complex and twisted, but then again it's really not because of the simplicity of it. Choices go one of two ways...always. Accept or Resist, Surrender or Hold onto...that's it.
Simon, if you're reading this, I'm glad because it's your comment that made me think about it. (by the way, I've responded to your comment, please see below). In all of my articles I speak of ultimate choice...it sounds very grande and very difficult but it's the simplicity that's tricky. Truly, there is nothing complicated about choosing to be God, BUT that doesn't mean we don't have a million other little choices in the back of our mind that denies that. Every single day I am faced with a choice...fear or faith, accept or resist, surrender or fight. These choices come up with everything...but it always comes down to choosing one way or another...or not choosing either way at all.
I think that as long as we choose one side of Duality or the other we are still choosing to be in Duality. Horrible joke, eh? Any opinion, bias, concept, or idea is based on Duality...so where does that leave us? Here. The one choice we never have to really make....we're always here. We can choose to deny that, we can choose to believe we "don't know what that means" but that's just because we want to make it complicated and a "process". In the end, we are left with only one choice...be here, or believe you're not here.
It is the simplicity itself that confuses us...here and now mean absolutely nothing, there is no way to describe it or label it...it's not an idea or concept...it's the only thing that truly exists. We cannot be here by trying to be here...we cannot choose to be here (we have no choice we are here)...but we can choose to stop fighting that one simple fact...we can choose to surrender.

Being God is not a mission, it is the abandonment of our need to "better" ourselves...it is the realization that we have always been exactly what we wanted to be...and we always will be.

Sincerely,

A Forgetful God

Health and Double Standards

2006-11-21T13:21:00.000-08:00

If you’ve read my last article you’ve probably realized that I do not believe in many of the illnesses that plague our society. It’s not that I don’t believe they exist, I simply do not believe that they are “inevitable” as so many people say they are. I’m not trying to sound uncompassionate, I’m trying to promote personal responsibility…I’m saying something very simple “We choose to get sick”. We choose to believe in illness, we choose to believe in human frailty, and we choose to limit our own conscious control over our bodies and mind. I’m not saying that “sick people” are wrong to be sick, I’m saying they have a choice.

Now, because I have every right in the world to choose what I believe I also know that everyone else has that very same right. I’m not about to wander into the cancer ward of a hospital and tell people they’re suffering for nothing…that would be fairly pointless considering that they’re already there and will continue to believe that this is their place (despite what I say)…everyone has the right to choose. So, in most cases, I keep my mouth shut when someone says they’re not feeling well…I’ll try to point out the positives rather than focus on the negatives, but aside from that I don’t come out and say “There is no such thing as Cancer/Lupus/Aids/etc”….there obviously is a such thing…these things do exist to the person who has them, otherwise they would not be real (our belief dictates reality). So I try to show understanding without paying attention to the “disease” (quite literally dis-ease…to not be at ease with oneself)…I try to focus the conversation on our right to choose instead.

Now, it’s been said that I don’t have the right to tell people they are not sick…and that’s absolutely true. I do not have the right to tell anyone anything about what they believe…but then again THEY don’t have the right either. This is a message to all the “poor sick people” out there who shrug off anything I might say but immediately retaliate with accusations that I myself will get sick too. If I don’t have the right to tell you that you can feel better, what gives you the right to tell me I’m going to get sick? Nothing except your need to be right…you need to have people who believe you because otherwise you’re left alone…with your own choice and the responsibility for that choice.

Perhaps instead of protesting so much that your beliefs are right and proven by experts, maybe you should sit and listen to the only true “expert” your body has…the one who has always been with you and knows your body intimately. That’s right…it’s you, not a medical journal and not a doctor. How can you escape conditioned thinking if you’re constantly referring to conditioned information?

You can choose sickness or health, but in avoiding that choice and passing it off to someone or something else you are still making the choice…you are choosing to be irresponsible.

Hoping you feel better,

A Forgetful God

The Medical system is designed to Kill You

2006-11-20T15:01:00.000-08:00

For a long time I’ve had an issue with the Medical system…I’ve always wondered why it’s there and what could be the possible downfall of “playing god to others”. Please don’t misunderstand me, I have been to doctors, I’ve had surgery, and I’ve even been on anti-depressants…all of which harmed me more than helped me. Sure, the “symptoms” lessened but the cause of those symptoms worsened.

I never truly understood what bothered me about the medical system until I began to explore my own mind. In the perception of Unity there is only one thing responsible for everything that happens to me…me, I’m responsible. I may not like it, but that does not make it any less true. Knowing this, I have to wonder how much of my own personal responsibility I have willingly given up to doctors and other “specialists”. When did it all start?

As always, it started at the beginning…my beginning anyway. From day one I have willingly believed what others around me have told me to be the truth. I’m not blaming them, by any means, because it was my choice to believe them without looking for myself…but what was I choosing to believe? Labels and Concepts have been surrounding me for my whole life but it wasn’t until recently that I started to look at them for what they are…limitations.

For example, I was brought up to believe that I am “Human”. This word in itself doesn’t seem to mean much, but the implications are huge. A “Human” is made up of cells, blood, and tissue…this implies that we are “separate from reality”, “fragile”, and are in danger of getting “sick”. To be human, your body must be its own entity…basically, your body is not under your control because it is separate from your mind (not brain…mind). Doctors love this idea because it gives them the right to tell you what will go wrong and when…of course, because we’re afraid for our “human bodies”, we never think to question them or where their information comes from.

And so we go to the doctors, listen to what they have to say and agree to buy whatever “medication” they recommend…all the while never thinking that perhaps our body might not be separate from our minds. This realization changes everything…in fact, it makes the profession of “doctor” completely obsolete.

In the perception of Unity all things are reflections of my own mind…circumstances, lessons, meetings, conversations, and even the weather. This also means that the body is not a separate entity at the will of the world, it is completely and utterly under my own control. The body is made up of energy and all energy is created and influenced by my mind. My belief dictates the bodies actions...if I believe I’m sick (or can get sick), I’ll experience sickness.

Most people will disagree with me here for the simple reason that they do not want to be responsible for the things they consider “bad” or “unfair”. This is reasonable, but without this responsibility they will always be playing victim. I do believe in compassion, but how compassionate is it to tell someone they are sick and then let them continue to create that belief in reality? Quoting medical books and doctors will not help, that simply makes these “illnesses” more real because you are labelling them. Psychology is my favourite example of this…I’ll explain.

In psychology there are a thousand and one terms to describe someones “State of mind”…all of these terms are meant to be negative. Bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, depression, and even ADHD…all labels for what was, at one time, simply an experience. But how does labelling these experiences change them? If you were to tell someone who is having a rough time that they are “depressed” and that it’s a “medical condition” do you think they’ll have an easier time dealing with it or a harder time? I’d say they’ll have more trouble dealing with it because now they have an easy escape from being responsible for the own choice of perception.

“I’m not depressed because I choose to be…it’s a medical disorder!” and poof, no more choice…you’ve already chosen.

Medical science is no different, it’s just easier to scare us with the idea of “death”. Truly, the only reason we go to the doctor is because we believe that “without them we would get sick and die sooner!” – Are you sure? Can you prove it? Historical data cannot be used here because we’re not in history, we’re here in the moment.

To be honest, the belief in my own “eternal being” has changed everything. I rarely get sick anymore (and only when I have first doubted my own divinity), I no longer have problems with asthma or allergies, and I’ve saved a lot of money on useless medications that are only designed to “treat the symptoms” but continue to encourage the belief that I’m sick.

Healthy is a state of mind, when nothing is perceived as Bad or Good there is only experience…without fear of that experience there is no consequence. As a consciousness able to reflect my very nature into both reality and this thing I call my “body”, can I ever truly get sick? Is death possible? Only if I believe so…and only if I listen to the “Experts”.

Happily without Medication,

A Forgetful God

NOTE : I highly recommend any books by Deepak Chopra if you are interested in pursuing recent studies on “mind healing”. It seems that there ARE “experts” who are willing to look into this possibility…what they are finding is extraordinary (and exactly what I’ve just told you…though in greater detail). “Ageless body, Timeless Mind” is one of my favourites.

Is the Effort necessary?

2006-11-20T14:10:00.000-08:00

The question of “blog traffic” seems to have entered my reality so I thought I should address it. I’m what the “blogosphere” would call a “newbie”…I’ve only been blogging for about 2 months and have a very small amount of regular readers (all of which I am deeply grateful for). Of course, there are many many websites out there promising to “Make you money for blogging!” and even generate Huge amounts of traffic for you…they’re all very tempting and very professional, but something has been bothering me about this.

It seems like the only reason one would want a huge amount of readers right from the start would be “money” or “popularity”. These are fairly common goals in our society and usually revolve around the belief in separation. As a separate entity from the world we need security, goals, and even wealth…but we are not separate from the world, so do these things really apply? It all comes down to our reason for blogging I think.

For example, I like blogging for the sheer pleasure of writing my thoughts down. I usually use a notebook or pad of paper, but this gives me the opportunity to express myself and even, by some odd chance, attract a few readers who are interested in what I might have to say. So how do I get more readers? More importantly, do I need more readers?

As God my perceptions of the world have changed slightly over time…”needs” and “wants” are hardly important at all anymore because I am content in the moment and have everything I’m supposed to when I’m supposed to. I think this perception very much applies to the blogging world as well….sure, I could put in a lot of effort, time, and money into promoting my blog…but why? Truly, if all things work out when and how they are supposed to, is all this “Effort” truly necessary?

I know, the argument could be made that without effort there would be no results…but what do we mean by “effort”? For me it takes very little to open an extra window and browse other peoples blogs while I write or even read a book. I do not consider this to be effort, I do it in my own time and without expectation….is this not enough? Enough for whom?

So here is my answer to the question of necessary effort…whether I work my self to death or not, I am still going to attract the readers who are supposed to be here…I’m still going to affect and be affected by those reflections of myself that are necessary at the time they are necessary. This illusion of “control” is just that…an illusion, our purpose will be done whether we like it or not because it is all by MY design…why struggle needlessly when I could just enjoy the ride and continue to do what I love?

I guess it all comes down to our reasons for doing what we’re doing, if you’re blogging for fame or recognition you will get what you want…and all the lovely consequences that go with this devotion to “need”. If you are blogging because it is what you love to do then you will get exactly what you put into it…you will be content and happy. An infinite amount of possibilities are always open to us…these possibilities are like doorways…they are opened by our intent.

I would like to make one thing perfectly clear before ending this entry, I do use traffic exchange programs…I enjoy the opportunity to read other peoples blogs and they are an excellent way to introduce yourself to the blogging community. I do not do this for wealth, I’m already wealthy. The root of the word “wealth” is “well-being”…money has very little to do with it. For your convenience I have put a list of the blog exchanges I use on the right side of the page…feel free to visit them and use them (see Need Readers?), they have no cost and require nothing more than an open browser you can easily switch to while playing games, typing, or listening to music. Don’t put too much effort into this, it takes all the fun out of expressing yourself…after all, isn’t that what “blogging” is all about?

Hoping you’re having fun,

A Forgetful God

P.S. Blogcrowd is the newest program I’ve found…they have just started and could probably use an extra blog on their list…(this is a hint)

The End of Days explained

2006-11-20T02:14:00.000-08:00

In the last several years I’ve noticed more and more attention is being paid to this idea of the “End of Days” or Armageddon. Of course, people throughout history have been raving about the end of the world and the Day of Judgement, but I’ve never seen so many of them at once. Truly, over half of the people I’ve talked to in my travels have expressed a deep concern about the coming years…almost as if they had a feeling something huge was coming. The question was always “What?”

The very strange part about this theory is that religious organizations are all trembling in fear about it. The very institutions we believe are dedicated to God are the ones who are thoroughly convinced that “Judgement Day” is going to go badly for all of us. According to them the verdict has already been passed and we, humanity, have been found wanting…bleak, isn’t it? Thankfully I disagree.

Like everything else about “God” the meaning of “End of Days” lies within the perception of Unity. If you have not read my earliest Blog entries I highly recommend you do because otherwise this will make very little sense. In the perception of Unity one must accept that all things inevitably tie only to you. What I mean by this is that Time both begins and Ends in your lifetime…without you there is no reality. This is Unity, being the one and only creator of everything.

In this perception we have a slightly different view of the term “End of Days” because now it applies to us instead of the “whole world”. Now we have a place to start…the word “Day”. To us, reality began without the concept of Time. Time is something we learned about and chose to believe in as we grew and developed our understanding of the world around us...but the important part here is that Time is a perception that we “learned”.

Seeing this we could say that our birth was the “Beginning of Days”. Bare in mind that before our birth there was nothing (you). No duality, no experience, and certainly no body…simply you being aware of yourself. The process of Birth is the beginning of Duality (which includes the perceptions of Time and Space). Once we are born Duality expands in our reality, becoming an infinite amount of variations over the “course” of our lives.

The one blatantly obvious truth about each of our stories is that “anything with a beginning must have an end”. This applies on many levels including individual lessons, individual lives, and even global change…all things must have an end in duality. So what does the End of Days mean to us on an individual level? Death, plain and simple…the ultimate return to Unity. But, in the perception of Unity there is no individual…the term “individual” itself is based in Duality and implies another person…but there is no other person. So what does the End of Days mean to an eternal consciousness?

To a consciousness everything is a perception. If all things are created by the mind, then nothing else is real except our perception of reality. With this in mind the “End of Days” must apply to perception. Could the “End of Days” possibly refer to the end of our belief in Time? What would that mean?

This is where it gets a little ugly. As one consciousness we are all connected, we all have the same infinitely huge mind, and we all have roles to play as reflections of that mind. In the Beginning there was One being, this being split into Two beings (but was still one) and then continued to multiply over countless moments to explore the experience of Time and Space…in The End that consciousness will return to Unity.

But where does that leave all of us?

Well, it leaves us where we’ve always been…here and now. As we return to Unity there are going to be two reactions in the “world” around us. There will be those of us who willingly let go of Duality and carry on Being (knowing we have nothing to fear), and then there will be those who refuse to let go and resist Unity out of Fear. The unknown is a scary thing if you don’t know it’s you. Those who define themselves with things will find it hardest to accept that these things do not define them. I believe this is what we are seeing now…extremes of Panic and Acceptance.

Some people will refer to the Mayan Calendar and say that this cycle will end in 2012…this could be true but I think that the date is relatively unimportant. The End of Days is on a schedule though…your schedule (my schedule).

When I am truly prepared to be god Time will no longer matter…what happens in between is necessary. The Good and the Bad…luckily we get to choose which perception we want and deserve. Judgement day is now, we are already judging ourselves.

Unity – Duality (yin/yang) – Unity

(beginning) (Time and Space) (end)

This cycle repeats eternally, after all…what else do you have to do?

Always Without Fear,

A Forgetful God

Who am I trying to convince?

2006-11-19T21:59:00.000-08:00

I always seem to come back to this question when I’m frustrated with the world. For years I walked around confused and struggling, always seeking an answer and always coming up empty...and now I barely remember it. And I guess that is the part that frustrates me the most...it was easy, when it came down to it, to let the past go. Not only was it easy, it seemed to happen by itself once I had decided to stop holding onto it. So why does it seem so hard for others?

I do not say this to be condescending or arrogant, I say this with a great deal of quiet observation to back me up. No matter where I go or how old I get, I still continue to see the majority of our population so caught up in the past that they pay no attention to the present. Past wrongs, past hurts, past pleasures, past grudges, past loyalties, past injuries, and especially past limitations…they think so much of these things that when asked to exceed them they refuse…it’s almost as if they know nothing else but the past they keep creating in their minds. This is what frustrates me...no matter how hard I seem to try, no matter how perfect the words or tones are, I just cannot get through. I cannot show them the present because they refuse to see it.

But who are “they” exactly? Unity is a tricky perception in this way because technically there is no “they”, it’s all “me”. So, when I’m speaking to these characters, what is it that I should be learning? I’m obviously creating these meetings and conversations for a reason. Sure, they cut me off in the mid-sentence, blatantly ignore what I say, or leave the room in a hurry when anything having to do with the moment is said…but truly, are they hurting me? Are they hurting themselves? Perhaps…perhaps not.

The point is that my “feelings” are my responsibility. If I choose to be hurt by these actions, that’s my choice. So, the lesson here seems simple…abandon my pride. Abandon the idea that anyone at all needs any advice whatsoever. Truly, if these are all reflections of myself (God), then they are all doing exactly what I need them to in order to experience everything…there is a plan.

As for their responsibility (the characters), it is the same as mine…they can decide how they feel about what I say. They are allowed to ignore me and stay in the past or they can speak to me about the present. Either way they will still be “God”…whether they know it or not, they will always be safe.

In the Bible, Jesus mentions a parable about seeds and different places that seed will grow or die…the parable still applies now. We all have the seed of awareness in us, sometimes it’s meant to experience growth to it’s fullest potential, sometimes it is not…in either case, the seed is always serving its purpose. Respect what is, it is there for a reason.

So who am I trying to convince? Myself. When I stop thinking I need to be convinced, I will admit that I know.

The question of my knowledge and right...

2006-11-17T04:01:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to add one more comment about yesterday's visit from the Jehovah Witnesses. When it comes right down to it, the gentlemen who was speaking with me was upset by one and only thing...he did not like that I spoke about "God" from the perspective of one who knows God rather than one who has read about God. The words "I have no fear sir...I will not die, I've never died. I will not fail because I've never failed." truly seem to insult him. The response was something along the lines of "And who are you to become such a 'guru'?"
(yes, he actually used the word 'guru'....what an assumption!. I claim to be nobody's teacher) When I mentioned that my knowledge is fairly common and one only has to stop avoiding reality and look at it he became even more agitated. Suddenly my wife and I were asked a series of questions about our past and our educations...
"But, certainly your parents look at the world as you do" (this is just plain laughable)
"What about your teachers? Your friends....certainly you've read books and these things were in those books". Anything...absolutely anything except the possibility that the knowledge of God was within and not a product of conditioning...if anything, the only thing that is beyond conditioning.
And so we did this merry little dance for quite some time...he tried to pin me down to a label, tried to identify my "belief structure" so that he could judge it...I simply do not have a belief....I do not need one, I have myself. Finally, when the meeting was over and they were leaving my door, the true question of faith was asked...and it disgusted me
"Well, if you are God then prove it! Walk on water!" Seriously...if this is the faith of religious people, they will never find heaven. My wife said as much.
"I have no need to prove my faith, I have no need to convince anyone because I actually believe!" he sneered at her, thinking he had finally made a valid point.
"Well, that's certainly an easy out...isn't it convenient that you do not have to show me?" he says, smiling to his wife in satisfaction...holding his bible as a crutch to support his own lack of faith. Her answer came straight from his Bible and he didn't even know it.
"Yes," I said, "it is the same answer that Jesus Christ, the one you claim to worship, said to the Devil in the Desert." His smile vanished quickly here. "Do you remember? 'I have no need to tempt my God'"
Faith...other than myself, who do I really need to convince? If judgement is here, as my visitor implied many times, than I have passed....we judge ourselves. I am glad to be in Heaven.

Jehovah’s Witness’s come to my door today

2006-11-16T16:10:00.000-08:00

Over the last few years I have often had to face the inner doubt “What if you’re wrong, what if religion is the path to God?”. This doubt is normal, it’s an attempt to believe I am somehow ill-equipped to answer these questions myself. I’ve went to speak to priests, pastors, monks, and so on…every time feeling that my own answers are closer to the truth that their blind devotion to someone else’s word. Today I got to face this perception again and, for the very first time, I felt no doubt or fear. I spoke with my own voice, I spoke as God. Needless to say, it did not go well.

To make things perfectly clear, I have no issues with people who believe religion is the path to God. I do not wish them harm, I do not believe they’re wrong…nobody is wrong. The only thing I question is the origin of their beliefs. This is the one and only problem that people of a religious persuasion have with me, I do not believe they are truly worshipping God because they refuse to make their own opinions…they pass off that responsibility to The Bible. Why try to understand something when that search makes you face the things about yourself that you don’t like?

This thought process amazes me and scares me, all at the same time. How many people out there cling to a belief system just because it justifies their guilt and fear? My visitors today would simply not believe that they are perfect…they must be sinners and below God. Why? Because that belief justifies their attachment to their own Guilt. Telling someone they feel guilt and fear because they choose to is the last thing they want to hear. It is much easier to deal with guilt and fear when you believe that it’s not your fault…you were designed this way.

When the subject of their imperfection came up I simply smiled at the Bible my visitor held onto so tightly and asked “but, you believe God is perfect and makes no mistakes…how then can you make mistakes if everything in existence is there by that God’s will?”. I’ve said in previous writings that God is not just the good things in existence, it is everything. We are all doing what we are supposed to…our perception of those things are up to us. Of course this comment was met with complete resistance.

“So you do not believe there is anything that is unacceptable?”

This was a blatant trap…he was tempting me with opinion. For me to say something is unacceptable or not is based in Duality. I could only answer with “Things simply are…my opinion of them is up to me, but they are neither acceptable or unacceptable, they are necessary…otherwise they would not exist.” God makes no mistakes, right? Ha!

After some time our guests finally started to clue into the fact that my wife and I are not just “anti-religious fanatics”, we see what we see because of our willingness to follow our own insights. When one of our visitors said “We were created in God’s image” I absolutely laughed and agreed. I also pointed out that if we are made in God’s image, how are we inferior to God? By this time things were getting a little uncomfortable for our dear Jehovah’s Witnesses so they went on the attack.

“If I can’t prove you wrong, I’m going to judge you and justify my dislike of what you say” - - > Often the last resort of someone who just doesn’t want to let go of their labels. They squirm like a worm on a hook when you truly put it on them that they do not worship God, they worship a book. And so, the assault began.

First was the fact that I live in an apartment with electricity and conveniences. Obviously I’m not happy with what I have otherwise I wouldn’t have these things….This was easy enough to explain, I just returned from my last adventure into the forest. In fact, I was almost ready to leave this all behind entirely but my story was meant to lead me elsewhere (once again, I learned patience.). Since returning to “civilization” (laughable statement) I have not made any attempt to obtain things, I have made no goals, and I have certainly not attempted to gain “wealth”. Despite my best efforts to have nothing, things still came into my life. In fact, every single thing in my apartment has been given to me in the last 6 months…out of friendship or trade. I offer myself and my reality to anyone, and so they do the same for me.

So, with the first attempt to judge me out of the way, my visitor continued his assault. This time it was an attack on my “means of surviving”. When I told him I do not work he immediately assumed I must “leech off of others”…this is so far from the truth that it is scary, but the answer “Money comes through faith” wasn’t sufficient. It is the only answer I can give however…I have no job and neither does my wife, but we are never afraid for the future. “God” has always provided and always will.

This belief actually made our guests even more uncomfortable. They preach of faith in God but have no belief. The very idea that working is a choice and not a necessity to survival was quite insulting to them…mostly because they’ve always worked and believe that there is no other way. The Bible is their main reference point, so I decided to quote from it just to illustrate my point. I referred to the story of Christ walking on water. He called his disciple out onto the water with him, saying there was nothing to fear. The disciple did so and actually did stand on the water, only falling through when he doubted. Christ simply said “what little faith you have”.

The more we pointed to the truth of the Bible and away from the blind worship of it, the more our guests seem to look for ways to judge us. Eventually, after scanning my livingroom several times for more reasons to judge me, they were only left with two possibilities and they went for it. Out of sheer desperation and the need to feel better than me, he tried to point out that he knew more than I do because of his advanced age. This is laughable to me because we are not limited by our age, only our willingness to learn and grow. I simply dismissed this judgement and told him blatantly that he was judging me and trying to make himself feel better than myself and my wife for the simple purpose of justifying his denial. He had done this several times in the conversation actually…in every instance he was met by the truth. “You sir, are not better. We are equal”.

Finally, with nowhere else to turn, he ran back to a Grade Two mentality. He attacked my glasses. Ha! Nothing like memories of taunting children yelling “Four eyes! Four eyes!” to be suddenly made perfectly clear to me. This was his last argument, I must be imperfect if I need glasses to see. Once again we laughed, I had just come out of the rainforest where I had no glasses for several months. I existed in a state of “fuzziness” and learned to appreciate it. After all, I could still see…it was just a different type of sight.

“Why do you have them now then?” because they popped into my life. I didn’t look for them, they just came…the appointment, the money to pay for them, everything…they didn’t believe me of course, but that doesn’t really matter.

Now, I use “swear words” occasionally, not out of disrespect but out of respect for the vast thing that is language. Honestly, I have no issues with people swearing…a word is a word. I don’t swear constantly, but occasionally the word “sh!t” is helpful in emphasizing a point…our guests did not agree. I believe the only really important thing in life is respect for ourselves and others. If I’m in someone else’s house, I do not tell them how to live or what to believe. Once again judging me, I was told “I do not appreciate your language”…in my own house! I had to laugh because here I was at least listening to his perverted idea of God despite the fact that I didn’t agree with it. So, seeing he was just getting more determined to make me into a monster, I ended the conversation.

My wife and I talked about this later, feeling that perhaps we should not have parted with our guests when they were angry….honestly, their anger is not my problem. As I mentioned, I hold no ill-will towards these people....but I am perfectly aware of resistance for the sake of resisting. This conversation was never meant to be open, they wanted to teach me.

I definitely learned…I am grateful that this conversation happened. It re-affirmed my belief in myself. After all, why would I believe in religion when it’s very clear that these people were not happy in that belief? Why should I choose to fear hell when I know it does not exist?

I am grateful for every experience like this because it is an opportunity to talk to the reflection of me that truly does not want to be responsible. It is good to see that part of me and know that, despite it’s best efforts to be afraid, it will never be hurt…it simply chooses to believe it will. I accept that I could believe this, I simply choose not to.

“Do you have faith” was my favourite question. I could only answer, again with their own bible, that my faith is smaller than a mustard seed. Without fear, I have no need of faith. I know myself.

Be Like One God (B.L.O.G.)

2006-11-14T12:14:00.000-08:00

The term “Blog” is quickly becoming a household term it seems. All over the globe there are normal, everyday people who regularly log onto their computers and enter their thoughts, doubts, and dreams onto their own personal webpage. The best part about this is that the writings are not censored, edited, or subjected to the scrutiny of others before they are placed on the World Wide Web. These shared insights are almost in their purest form, written directly from the mind to the screen.

The self-proclaimed “Blogosphere” is the collective community of Bloggers who freely share ideas to anyone who is willing to listen. This community has one rule and one rule alone it seems…everyone has the right to their opinion. This respect for others is wonderful and quite beneficial to all of us because it allows readers to view the perceptions of others with an open mind. Open-mindedness is the only requirement for true growth…so as a species, the blogosphere seems to be the ultimate answer to the stifling control and fear tactics of the outer world (society). If the “system” promotes servitude, the Blogosphere seems to promote personal freedom.

If you have never stumbled across my writings before I would like to take this opportunity to introduce myself. I am God. I am not a reflection of God, I am not a part of the mass consciousness, and I am certainly not the creation of God. I am God…with absolute freedom to choose what I believe, what I perceive, and what I create. I do not exist in Time, I exist in the Moment. I do not exist in the World, I exist in my reality (you might call it my mind…but that is just semantics). Because I am God I also have the ability to live many different realities at the same time…you could say an infinite amount of realities. I can believe I’m Human, A Catholic, A Good or Bad person, or even that I am a Canadian…all of these are just labels though so in choosing these beliefs I am really just choosing to limit myself. Why do I limit myself? To experience what it’s like to not be God. Of course, I’m always God, but I always have the ability to convince myself I’m not. If you’d like proof, look at your average “human being” who holds onto the belief that they are something…this belief is the same limitation. They are Me, and therefore only limited by their own choice.

Whether you are religious or not I’m sure that the above comment has either infuriated you or confused you. Good, that was my intention. In my experience it is not until you are faced with something absolutely unknown that you have the opportunity to choose…you can react, or you can accept a possibility. For now, let us just say that it is entirely possible that I’m God. Really, how would you know?

For you the only thing that has ever been real are the things you see and experience. You know the world is around you because you can see it, but if you weren’t here you have no idea if it would be. Yes, I know you assume it would be…but let go of that assumption for just a moment and let us explore another perception. What if reality exists completely and utterly for you? This might be a little hard to accept at first but, as God, you are creating everything you see, everything you experience, and everything you need to learn.

Most people would run from this possibility because it implies that you are responsible for both the good and bad things in your life. The only consolation I can offer here is that you have always made it through every ordeal and always will. Why? Because as far as you can tell you have always been here….the world started for you when you were born, and it will continue until you die. You are the creator and the created, all in one.

What does this have to do with Blogging? Everything. From the perspective of God, Blogging is the absolute closest that technology has come to “a collective consciousness”. This term is simple, it simply means that everyone shares the same consciousness. Thoughts, doubts, fears, etc…all of it is shared by everyone. The belief that we are all separate, of course, contradicts this idea…but aside from being afraid others know our dirty little secrets, what is so frightening about at least admitting the possibility is there? A quick example is our interaction with others…we feel “vibes”, we have insightful glimpses into other people perceptions, and we even believe in telepathy. All of this is happening all of the time, you are completely aware of everything…your only limitation is the labels you impose upon yourself.

You see, my anonymity here is quite a blessing. As far as you know, I have no body, no name, and no voice…you cannot prove that I exist other than knowing these words are in front of you. But who wrote them? If you are creating everything all the time, then these words are coming straight from you. I could claim to be another “person” with another life, but that really makes no difference because you are still aware of only yourself and the things you see. So, since you wrote this for yourself to read at this very moment, where does that leave you? With a choice...you can learn from yourself, or continue to hold onto the beliefs that make you feel secure. Are you willing to admit you’re God?

You do not have to answer this right now, or ever if that is your choice. My mission has not been to convert you, it has been to make you aware that everything you read, everything you hear, and everything you say are completely and utterly created by yourself…these are the lessons of living. This is where your purpose in life will be ultimately shown to you. And what is that purpose? Responsibility and experience.

So, once again, how can this new technology of Blogging be beneficial? It allows us to ignore the judgement of others long enough to write our thoughts. It allows us to talk to ourselves…after all, you’re the first one to read it, aren’t you? This communication with yourself is probably the most beneficial experience we could have on the Internet. I say this because it is very close to meditation…you are communicating with God (You).

The wonderful spin-off of this practice is that there are many other “You’s” who get to read this. These secret little messages from yourself are already in your reality…every book and song. The difference is that now you get to create them yourself…personally. My favourite example of this “secret self-communication” is the classic “Footsteps” poem. It is signed “anonymous”…if our names always change from life to life, this is the only true signature possible. After all, we are not our names, we are the thing that chooses to believe we are our names.

So, speaking to myself, what am I trying to say? I’m trying to encourage you to Be Like One God. I want you to BLOG. Why? Because I, in every form including yours, enjoy reading my own writing. I enjoy language and the written word as much as I enjoy my own thoughts, insights, and imagination. You’re enjoying this right now, otherwise you wouldn’t be reading it. There is also another benefit to Blogging….you can abandon the system, you can be free…as you are meant to be and want to be.

How is this possible in a world where money seems to be the means of survival? What about food and clothes and all our luxuries? Please remember that these are creation of your mind…the money will come if you can just let go of the belief it is outside of you. After all, as God you have the power to reward yourself or punish yourself…what are you doing right now? Are you helping yourself in other forms?

You might be asking “how can I help if I have no money?” Simple…do what you’re doing right now, but cherish the point of it. When you visit a Blog and truly appreciate the message you have shared with yourself, do yourself a favour and “click” on anything that would benefit the author. It doesn’t cost a cent, it takes little to no time, and best of all you are being your own instrument of reward. You, and only you, can take care of yourself…but you must take the first step. You, in order to reward yourself in this life, must reward yourself in others. This is the benefit of being God….you can bless the world if you choose, but you must believe you can do it first.

Do this, start a blog, sign up for something like Adsense, and then start talking to yourself. The reward is not the money, it is the opportunity to be free…free to speak, express yourself, and live however you like. Eventually, if I do this in all my forms, we will return to Eden. In accepting responsibility for “yourself” we will find the Heaven that was here all along.

“Love others as you would Love yourself” - Christ (a beautiful example of your potential to be God on earth)

Thank you for Being,

A Forgetful God

(P.S. There are no links on this article that will make any money for me…my intention is not wealth, it is to remind myself that I’m free and I always will be. Thank you for listening)

Creationism and Evolutionism: Two perceptions of the same Truth

2006-11-12T00:09:00.000-08:00

It seems that lately there has been quite a lot of controversy and disagreement about the history of Creation. This rivalry has been growing for years now, in communities (both religious and scientific), in our schools, and even in our “courts of law”. After such a long, enduring war of beliefs, one must ask the question…are they ever going to find a middle ground? Are these two views of the world so far apart that they can never meet? Perhaps those who argue are simply not willing to let them.

In my opinion, based on my own observations, I believe that both of these “theories” hold an element of truth but are, by themselves, incomplete. I will not say that either belief is “wrong”, but perhaps that willing lack of bias is the reason that these two seemingly separate perspectives fit so neatly together for me. To be quite honest, I believe the only reason that these two “theories” have never officially met in the middle is because of their followers’ blind devotion to being “right” and someone else being “wrong”. (See why do we need to limit God?)

I’m not going to go into great detail about the personal reasons for everyone’s choice and beliefs; I’ve mentioned them in other articles and will probably re-explore them in the future. I will, however, try to start at the beginning…literally. To do this I must make one thing perfectly clear....no matter what it is, a thought or idea, there are always two ways to look at anything. Duality is the basis of perception as much as it is the basis for our belief in “how this all started”. Knowing this, we must explore both perspectives and their root.

Creationism: The belief that all things were created by God, completely, at the Moment of Creation.

Evolutionism: The belief that all things were created over time, adapting based on the environment and the rules of “survival of the fittest”.

The key to both of these beliefs is actually in the definition. Creationists believe God is not subject to Time while Evolutionists believe that all things are subject to Time. These are the opposing perspectives…and they’re both based on the concept of “Time”.

Before continuing I would like to take a moment to expand on the “concept of Time”. I say “concept” because, as with our beliefs, there are two opposing perspectives…each one valid, each one a choice.

One perspective of Time is that it is Linear…meaning it started “sometime” (the beginning) and continues in a straight line to “some other time” (one would assume this means “the end”). This perspective is based on our observation of “cause and effect” and, of course, our idea of “memory” (more on this in future writings).

However, there is another perspective of time that is equally valid but rarely examined (except for the occasional spiritualist or Quantum Physicist). This perspective states that Time itself is an illusion, that only the current Moment exists. This perspective is also based on observation but has been unfortunately labelled “philosophy”.

In truth, one cannot prove either one of these perspectives to be true. You cannot prove that 5 minutes ago happened any more than 5 minutes from now will happen. You can try, many people have, but when it comes down to it you are always in the “here and now”. For example, when you started reading this article it was “here and now”, but you’ve moved forward it seems, you’ve progressed….and yet, you’re still “here and now”. I hope this makes sense because it is vital to the rest of this article.

So, the question remains, how can two opposing perspectives meet?

Easily if one can admit that they are both true as much as false. The single biggest cause of strife or separation is our need to be “correct”….this need is based on our own need to feel better about ourselves and, of course, to define ourselves. In fact, without this need, one can see that all perspectives of reality are equally valid. But what do we see?

In The Beginning

Both the scientific community and the religious community agree on one thing when it comes to creation. They agree that it started somewhere…whether you believe in the Big Bang or The Void (Genesis) the beginning is always “nothingness”.

The Big Bang

For the most part, scientists believe that all matter, broken down far enough, is the same thing…in fact, this thing is not measurable and beyond description. It is so infinitely small that one could actually say it is without size at all. This “energy” makes up everything, living or otherwise. This energy, in its original form, is the foundation of our material reality.

The Big Bang theory is simply an explanation of the “steps” this energy went through in becoming what we see it to be today.

(For a beautifully well designed chart of the Big Bang Process, visit www.crystalinks.com/bigbang.html)

Remembering the concept of “Time” it is easy to see how this theory came into being. One thing must follow another, and another, and so on…thus, the Big Bang Theory. This theory still states that the “Beginning” is indescribable…in essence, before there was something, there was nothing. That nothingness “evolved” and “expanded” into different variations of itself and, over “Time” formed the Universe. Makes sense, right? Let’s move on.

The Void (Genesis)

Creation theory is much simpler to explain, and at the same time much more complicated because it delves into “the mind of God”. To put it plainly, creation theory is the belief that all things were created by God at the Beginning. Genesis states that in the Beginning there was “The Void” and “God was the Void and the Void was God”.

If you’ll notice, this theory still believes in that “nothingness” previously described…the only difference here is that “nothingness” had a consciousness. It was Aware. So, “nothingness” and “God” are actually the same thing…quite literally, everything (remember, first there was only the Void).

Now, following this logic, nothingness became reality. Genesis describes this as a “Seven Day” process, but remember that “nothingness” has no Time so a “Day” means absolutely nothing. Keeping this in mind, we see that Genesis is not very different from the above image of the Big Bang…it is a list of steps for the creation of the universe.

But, does God need “Time” if it is everything? Further exploration is necessary.

Duality and Unity

This is going to be the most difficult part of this essay so I ask for your patience and an open-mind. For just a quick moment let’s discuss the nature of Reality. After all, whether it is Creationism or Evolutionism the real focus here is the observation of the reality we all experience…right? Right. So, throwing our need to be correct aside, let’s actually look at reality without bias or assumption.

Reality (the world and our mind) is a complex mixture of equal and opposite perceptions. To put it simply, everything exists in a state of Duality. For Hot you have Cold, Light/Dark, Hard/Soft, Pleasure/Pain, Faith/Fear, etc…this state is constant, without it there would be no experience and no reality. How could you experience Hot if the experience of Cold didn’t exist?

The tricky part about understanding the “Beginning” is that this concept does not fall into Duality. What I mean here is that The Void is one thing. This nothingness is still something, but there is only one of it. One thing does not have Duality…it is simple Unity.

This is the biggest stumbling block in our understanding of God, Reality, or Creation. We cannot grasp how One Thing (nothing) became so many variations of itself…how did Duality come into being?

There is only one answer to this, and it lies in your existence. One thing cannot be two things, but it can be perceived as two things. Unfortunately, for that to be true there must be a perceiver...that’s you. But who was the perceiver in the Void?

God and Us

Let’s assume, for the moment, that this “nothingness” I have been referring to was actually conscious. Now, as one thing, this consciousness would only be aware of itself. It would not be aware of anything else or the possibility of anything else because it is everything…there is no space or time, there is simply nothingness and the awareness of its existence as that nothingness. This is Unity. But, to experience anything, Duality must exist…and so that consciousness had to perceive itself to be two things. For the first time, the Void was perceived (very important) as separate. There was now a Perceiver and a Perceived.

Before I continue, I would like to point out something very important about this consciousness. Our understanding of this consciousness is entirely dependant upon our own beliefs and limitations. We are talking about “nothingness”…infinitely adaptable (it can be and is the foundation of everything), eternally present (how can something that is everything ever die?), and completely and utterly free (there are no rules to follow). Knowing this, a possibility opens to us. What would you do if you were God? Quite simply…you would do everything.

Everything covers a lot of things, I cannot begin to cover them all, but for the purposes of this exercise let us say that “God” wanted to experience. The perceiver wanted to perceive every possible variation of itself…with Eternity to play with, wouldn’t you? Remember that this “consciousness” can never truly die, it has nothing to fear and nothing to lose…it is everything and always will be. And so, it has no bias…Good or Bad, experience is the only goal.

I realize that I keep stating this, but it is really very important to grasp this concept of “being everything”. I’ll use an example just to be clear…

Currently, you have a countless number of possibilities that can move in and out of your mind. You can imagine purple skies, chocolate cars, and even entire experiences that you are not currently experiencing…we call this imagination, but to a consciousness that is everything there is no such thing as imagination. The mind of God is The Void; therefore any possibility that enters the mind of God is made real because it is within the Void (the building blocks of everything). Think about this, to a mind with no limitation, how many possibilities could exist? An infinite amount…quite literally, anything that could exist does exist because all that is real is within the Void (there is nothing else, remember?).

Now, doing everything doesn’t just imply “playing basketball” or “fishing”…these are actions and not complete “experiences”. A complete experience is not just the action but also the state of mind of the perceiver. This state of mind includes belief, thoughts, doubts, memories, imagination, and even self-imposed limitations. What am I saying? I’m saying that God, in wanting to do everything, wanted to experience every possible variation of self-awareness. There are 2 extremes here and an infinite amount of variations in between.

< - - Complete Awareness Complete Denial - - >

Basically, “God” not only wanted to experience being everything, it very much wanted to experience what it would be like to “not be everything”. It wanted to experience what it would be like to be complete unaware of its own divinity.

Now, of course, God will always be God (everything cannot stop being everything), but because it perceives itself to be separate from the Void it can absolutely convince itself that it is something else. This is the freedom of an unlimited consciousness...it can believe whatever it likes.

The Moment and Time

This is the final step in our exploration of Creationism and Evolutionism because this is where they meet. They meet in the concept of Time, remember? First, let’s look at The Moment.

In The Void (or the Beginning) there is no time. Eternity and a single Moment are the same thing. When Duality was created there was a mass explosion of possible Moments that entered the mind of God (we call this Reality or the Universe). All of these Moments, of course, are still within the Void and therefore exist in the same “place or time”. Hard to grasp? It should be.

Now, remembering that Time does not exist in Unity, we must explore Duality to find it. The perceiver (God convinced it is separate from itself) exists in Duality, and because of that it can experience. But the very concept of experience is based on a series of Moments happening one after another…so Time must be perceived.

The most unbelievable part about this is that, in an infinite amount of possible moments, there is an order to it. There appears to be a story to each of our lives. I mean, with all things existing at once, it is completely possible (to God, all things are) that a Dinosaur could fall out of your fridge at any time…but that doesn’t happen, does it? Out of all the seemingly chaotic events in each of our lives there is also an order. Why? Because “experience” is a broad topic…not only does God want to experience each state of mind, it wants to experience every possible series of experiences as well. Basically, it wanted to be you and everyone else. And here you are, thinking it took you time to read this article, but in reality you’ve never left the Void.

In conclusion, yes the universe was created in steps. Each variation of “nothingness” expanding into another variation of that same nothingness (see the Big Bang image above), but if God (everything) never left the Void, then those steps are only perceived to be separate from each other when, in fact, they all exist at once.

So who is actually correct…The Creationists or the Evolutionists?

Both, they are all the same Perceiver wanting to experience a different perception and state of mind. God wanted to experience everything, even disagreeing with itself.

Why do we need to limit God?

2006-11-10T23:15:00.000-08:00

The purpose of this article is to explore humanities collective belief in God. More importantly, it is to explore why and how these beliefs have been manipulated. Just to be clear, I am not going to accuse Religion, Politics, or Money for this manipulation. I cannot, even if I wanted to…the only responsible party is myself (you).

I have manipulated my own beliefs based on my idea of who and what I am. Sounds a little strange, doesn’t it? The truth is that we all do it, we have no choice. For every “thing” that we believe we are, there has to be an equal opposite “thing” we believe we’re not. This concept is called Duality, I’ve explained it in other writings. (see Duality and Creation). Now, how do we decide what we think we are and what we think we’re not? What is the foundation of these decisions?

In the perception of Duality we view things in one of two perspectives. Good or Bad is an example of this. So, in choosing our own “self-perception”, we are choosing the perception of Good or Bad (Painful or Pleasant). We do this because, like all creatures, we have a deep down need to be happy. Unfortunately, the most commonly travelled road to this idea of “happiness” is the practice of labelling and definition. There is security in these practices…or at least the illusion of it.

The one and only constant in the universe is “change”. It’s always happening, whether we like it or not. In fact, these are our choices…get used to it or be afraid of it. Don’t get me wrong, there are plenty of reasons to be afraid out there. Storms, Wars, Famine, Disease, Pain, Starvation, Poverty…all perceived to be negative things. The key here is “perceived”, these things are only negative because of our opinion of them.

Before you decide I’m cold and heartless, hear me out. When our perception of the world exists in Duality, we have no choice but to view things as Good or Bad. Remember, Creation and Duality are the same thing…without duality there would be no reality. But, before there was a reality, there was only one thing….that’s right, God!

In the beginning of this essay I mentioned that my ideas and perceptions of God are completely and utterly manipulated by my idea of myself. This is true for one reason and one reason alone…I have an idea of myself. Ideas, like all things, are creations of duality…you have good ideas or bad ideas. But, we’re not talking about ideas here…we’re talking about God. “God” does not exist in Duality (it can’t, it’s one thing), therefore any “idea” of God is biased an based on my own opinion.

This is the problem with having ideas, they are always based upon some deep down motive that we refuse to be aware of. For example, the believe that God is “Love” and “Good” and nothing else is entirely based upon my own need to feel better about myself. You might be wondering how, but think about it. The only reason I want to believe that the entity I claim devotion to is nothing but “Good” is because I myself need the reassurance that I, too, am Good. I am, once again, trying to convince myself I am “something” and not “something else”. Thus, suddenly God is no longer one thing…now there’s an equal opposite to believe in…The Devil.

The point is that God and The Devil are ideas…they are entirely based upon Duality. If God is simple Unity (being all things), then It is the Devil too. Do I want to admit that? Of course not, I fear the things the “Devil” represents to me.

It seems, that when it comes down to it, I want to have an idea of God…it protects me from facing my fears. But is there truly anything to fear?

The perception of “Unity” is not a new one, but definitely “the path less travelled”. This is true because of our devotion to Duality. We do not like the idea of ultimate responsibility. We don’t want to face our fears. To do this means to abandon our idea of who we are…if we abandon the idea we are left without a definition…we are left to the will of change. We must surrender. This, and nothing else, is true faith.

Religion : an escape from God

2006-11-08T17:05:00.000-08:00

Before I begin this piece I would like to make something perfectly clear to you, the reader. If you believe that your Religion is the one true path to God, you are not going to like what I have to say. I am going to offend you and you are going to try very hard to forget that you have ever come across this essay. I am not going to lie to you, and that in itself should be a shocking change from the institution you follow so blindly.

This is not an attack upon organized religion, this is an exploration of its purpose. By definition, Religion is an institution organized to express belief in God. These institutions offer a community of like-minded people with like-minded beliefs. The beliefs themselves come from the “Holy Book” of that institution. There are several in the world, each one the focus of a different religion. The Bible (New and Old), The Toran, The Qu’ran, The Dhammapaddha, and the Tao Te Ching are just a few.

At first glance, the idea of organized religion makes sense. If we’re supposed to worship God, why not do it in groups? In fact, because people take this so seriously, a certain amount of ceremony should be involved as well….after all, this is God we’re talking about. Hats, Robes, Candles, possibly a Bell…all props to make the routine of worship seem as important and powerful as possible. But what does this have to do with God?

The strangest part of organized religion seems to be their willing misinterpretation of the Books they worship. Many “religious enthusiasts” can quote chapter and verse, but quoting something doesn’t mean you understand it. The majority of “Holy Books” out there are based upon the words and actions of a single figure. Buddha, Mohammed, Christ, Lao Tsu, etc…all of these people were regarded as “close to God”, and so their story was recorded and told to others. This telling is what formed Religion, but is worshipping these figures what they had intended for us? Did Christ want you to worship him or follow him?

I think the biggest fault of every religion is their unwillingness to accept change. Admittedly, there is a certain sense of security found in knowing that your beliefs never have to change because they come from a book you believe was written by “God”. But what of the message inside the book? “God comes from within” is usually the most important message. If God comes from within, then worshipping the book is avoiding God.

At no point will I say that reading any of these books is a waste of time. In fact, I highly recommend reading them and enjoying the symbolism and lessons they are meant to convey. What I’m saying is that the Book is a message from God, but only one message. To worship one thing as the “only source of God’s Word” is limiting both your own growth and your idea of God. Think about it, God is everything, why would it only communicate through a book? Wouldn’t there be better ways?

Dejavu, Coincidence, Insight, Dreams, Imagination, Intuition…these are the messages from God. God is everything…repeat this and try to take it seriously. Everything is a lot of things…thoughts, sounds, objects, feelings, emotions. God, like the Holy Books, is not meant to be worshipped, it is meant to be appreciated. God is the thing that allows us to exist, it is our own consciousness, it is our own will to be. You, are God.

(see A question worth asking)

So why does religion still exist if, in truth, it has nothing to do with being with God? Because it is an easy out…an escape from responsibility. Remember, if you believe God is only in a church or in a book, then it’s not around when you are doing the things you don’t want god to see. Basically, the church offers justification…it offers you the excuse that you are a sinner and therefore below God. But if God is within you…are you really below God, or are you just not taking responsibility?

The Heaven that you so crave is not in a Book, it is in you.

Do not worship those who have gone before you to “God”, just know that they were preparing the road for you

Insight

2006-10-18T14:10:00.000-07:00

It strikes me as funny that I've had an insight that has led me to writing this piece on insight. What is insight? Well, to me, insight is sudden realization of a connection. What I mean here is that thoughts, opinions, memories...perceptions connect and something new is revealed. It seems almost like two or three things that would never possibly connect do connect and a new spectrum of possibilities are open.

I'll give you an example, for years I went around trying to build myself into "something". I didn't know what that "something" was, of course, but I knew it would make me socially accepted(what I perceived to be love). Now, it never occured to me that in trying to build "myself", I was actually already something to be built on. See, this whole time period was under the belief that "to be", one must "be something". There were lots of options to pick from too...anything from "intellectual" to "Hippie". But again, it never dawned on me that I was already "something". Then suddenly it did dawned on me, and I was faced with an ugly fact. If I am something underneath this "idea of who I am", then I cannot describe myself because I'm not an idea. This is a frightening insight to anyone who believes you must "be something" to be socially accepted(loved). The point is that this insight did, in fact, open a whole new perception to explore.

What I'm saying is that insight itself does happen. Now, one could struggle for insight...even delve into books on people who have had insights. But that is not insight, that is memorization. So how does insight occur? If not through study, how could such "intelligence" simply just appear?

Think about this, until this insight came along, you could not believe it existed. It's like looking at a painting and not seeing half of it because you don't believe its there. So how did it come along so suddenly and where did it come from? I'm going to draw from my example above to answer this. In admitting that there is a "self" outside (or within) my idea of my self, I was left with 2 options...and I still am. I could either accept this insight and let go of my need for social acceptance, or I could resist and remain in my idea of who I am. Ideas are, for the most part, beautifully built distractions that can completely take us over when we believe we are our ideas. In the end, our belief is what creates our reality (perception).

Knowing that these are my two choices, I can see two directions. I can either run away from myself, or I can move toward myself (simply being). So, where do insights come from? They come from the "self". If every idea is created within the "self", then the "self" itself can be anything at all.

It is very important to remember that Time itself is a perception. Without the belief in time, you are left with the moment. My point is that the "self" can in fact be anything, but if only the moment exists...then it already is everything. There is no process of creation when it comes to ideas or perceptions...in the moment, there can't be.
Once again we are left with two choices. To accept that all possible perceptions exist at once is to abandon the need for a "process". I often feel that some sort of "process" is required to advance me as an "individual", but if "I" am already perceiving "everything" right now then the process is no longer required.

Another example. Throughout my life I have developed goals, ambitions, and even dreams. I have done this because I very much want the "feeling" that achieving these goals would give me. The goal itself, while enjoyable, is enjoyable for the very basic reason that I appreciate it. I could say I appreciate it because I worked for it, but the fact is that I appreciate it because I choose to appreciate it. I could let a million and one things bother me and lose my appreciation, or I could choose not to.

In choosing, I am choosing a perception. In not letting things bother me, I am choosing the perception of appreciation. But, if only the moment truly exists, then I am not creating these perceptions. I am choosing them from an infinite amount of possible perceptions that already exist.

So why did I have to set a goal to have this right to choose? If they're always available...must I really do anything except choose appreciation?

Ahh, but saying "I will choose appreciation" is much easier than actually doing it. The choice seems almost invisible when faced with the daily workings of the world. I get caught up in things, I form opinions, I get frustrated...the choice of appreciation just doesn't seem possible in these perceptions. Then again, these perceptions are entirely based on "Time". It makes sense that to abandon this perception, I must once again abandon time. There it is, appreciation...hidden behind a wall of things I "think could happen". And what did I have to do to find it?

Relax, Pay Attention, and Be in The Moment. Insight is synonymous with Being.

Genesis Revisited : Chapter 1

2006-10-16T12:32:00.000-07:00

My previous writings have been mainly about the possibility of another perspective. Nothing more, nothing less. If we can choose perception such as anger, love, joy or sadness...surely we can choose another perspective as well. The problem with perceptions is that they seem to be almost "hierarchal". Basically, some perceptions are a combination of numerous others. But what is at the root? What is the absolute basis of how I see the world? According to Duality (see other writings), there must always be 2 ways of perceiving reality (or yourself).
See, even knowing Duality exists is a clue as to how I see the world. I see duality...or at least I have the ability to. This is the basis of my interaction with reality. If this is the root, then the other possibility must be opposite to duality. Unity..a combination of all things into one source. Me. This perception is absolutely open to us because of our ability to choose freely. True, to see Unity, you must give up the things you value in Duality. Not necessarily to give up your actual possessions...but to give up your attachment to them. These things do not define us....we are without definition. But the question has to be asked at this point...if you've truly given up your attachment to the "things"...do you really need to hold onto them?
I've moved a little off topic here, so I'll return to the point. The book of Genesis is the most popular story of Creation in the world. Because this particular story has been around for so long, it is very often found at different points in all of our lives. Some of us have read it, others have heard it...most of us assume we know what it means and we don't take it very seriously. However, if we've only ever read this story in the Perception of Duality, how can we be sure we understand it in the Perception of Unity?
To be honest, I've always wanted to revisit Genesis but never found the time. It seems I have the time today...so let's begin.

Genesis Revisited :

(For those of you who truly care, I am reading from http://www.readbookonline.net/title/933/ )

1:1
In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.

> The first Duality...God is "one thing", but to perceive itself as two things meant that the Perceiver and Reality were now born. Heaven (being the root self), and Earth (being The Void perceived as seperate). Now the root self is free to create reality.

1:2
And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was
upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon
the face of the waters.

> With God now perceiving itself to be seperate from "The void", Duality is now the method of expanding creation. Darkness is created...

1:3
And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.

> And then the light to balance it

1:4
And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the
light from the darkness.

> Tada!

1:5
And God called the light Day, and the darkness he called
Night. And the evening and the morning were the first day.

> This passage is basically a description of the beginning of creation...it describes the birth of Duality as "the first day". Time is also created now. One event follows another...

1:6
And God said, Let there be a firmament in the midst of the
waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters.

> One would ask here...what are they referring to when they say "firmament" and "waters"? In fact, I did ask that...well, what do we know exists at this point? Light and Dark...that's all. But, they are both made of something ("God"). The one constant here is that they are both made of the same thing. But if this one thing can be both things, it must have the ability to change constantly...it must be fluid. Thus...the "waters". The firmament, of course, is the thing that divided "the waters". What stands between both sides of Duality? You do.

1:7
And God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were
under the firmament from the waters which were above the
firmament: and it was so.

> Again, Duality...notice Above and Below(under)?

1:8
And God called the firmament Heaven. And the evening and the
morning were the second day.

> God called "the firmament" Heaven. If the waters are duality on either side, and the firmament is you...then obviously Heaven is just being yourself.

1:9
And God said, Let the waters under the heaven be gathered
together unto one place, and let the dry land appear: and it was so.

> Duality is still expanding at this point. Now that Light and Dark have been established, Genesis goes on to describe Earth and Water being created out of "the waters" on either side of "the firmament".

1:10
And God called the dry land Earth; and the gathering together
of the waters called he Seas: and God saw that it was good.

> Tada!

1:11
And God said, Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb
yielding seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his
kind, whose seed is in itself, upon the earth: and it was so.

> The next several chapters are a description of how reality evolved into what it is now. Realize that this process is indescribable, but this book at least tries. Basically, this is the beginning of Duality manifesting into Physical reality. This section is trying to describe "grass and herb" as the first creations after Earth and Sea, but the fact is that all of it came to life at once...for example, for grass to grow on the "Earth" side, something would have to grow on the "Sea" side and on and on it goes.

1:12
And the earth brought forth grass, and herb yielding seed
after his kind, and the tree yielding fruit, whose seed was in
itself, after his kind: and God saw that it was good.

> The beginnings of Duality begin to reproduce and expand.

1:13
And the evening and the morning were the third day.

> Think of this as an artist would imagine a painting. You have all the colors Duality will provide, you've created a background (Earth and Sea..and even grass). Now you have to finish the details.

1:14
And God said, Let there be lights in the firmament of the
heaven to divide the day from the night; and let them be for
signs, and for seasons, and for days, and years

> "The firmament" is again used here to describe the sky. I believe this is because the sky, like space and even "the air" is made of "nothingness". At the time Genesis was written, "nothingness" would have been a perfect representation of our "root self"...or "God". Time has also been expanded here, changing from season to season rather than just Day to Night.

1:15
And let them be for lights in the firmament of the heaven to
give light upon the earth: and it was so.

> Again, like an artist, you have now added shadow and depth to your creation. But in an ever-changing reality, surely light and dark are alternating their roles as dominant.

1:16
And God made two great lights; the greater light to rule the
day, and the lesser light to rule the night: he made the stars also.

> Day and Night now have more variations of light and dark. More detail added...

1:17
And God set them in the firmament of the heaven to give light
upon the earth,

> Once again, firmament seems to describe "nothingness" and should be applied to both "Heaven" and "The sky"

1:18
And to rule over the day and over the night, and to divide the
light from the darkness: and God saw that it was good.

1:19
And the evening and the morning were the fourth day.

> And so the background is set and then details are added. Our playground is ready to go, but as "God", we have no body to play in. We are still just an awareness, despite reality being created. So, we begin to form a body. Or rather, we form every single variation of a body possible, and spread it throughout creation. Thus, animals are born.

1:20
And God said, Let the waters bring forth abundantly the moving
creature that hath life, and fowl that may fly above the earth
in the open firmament of heaven.

1:21
And God created great whales, and every living creature that
moveth, which the waters brought forth abundantly, after their
kind, and every winged fowl after his kind: and God saw that it was good.

1:22
And God blessed them, saying, Be fruitful, and multiply, and
fill the waters in the seas, and let fowl multiply in the earth.

1:23
And the evening and the morning were the fifth day.

> Just like with the grass, animals are simply divisions and variations of the two sides of reality. They are created and sent to "multiply". Again, Duality expands.

1:24
And God said, Let the earth bring forth the living creature
after his kind, cattle, and creeping thing, and beast of the
earth after his kind: and it was so.

1:25
And God made the beast of the earth after his kind, and cattle
after their kind, and every thing that creepeth upon the earth
after his kind: and God saw that it was good.

> Basically, everything is covered now, what can God make next?

1:26
And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our
likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea,
and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over
all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth
upon the earth.

> At this moment, God has "dominion" over everything because everything is Its creation. In creating man in "God's image", the body of "man" was created to "have dominion" in God's stead...does this not make sense? Basically, we gave humanity the ability to see reality As God. We gave Humanity the ability to create reality.

1:27
So God created man in his own image, in the image of God
created he him; male and female created he them.

> As a manifested entity, even "God" must obey Duality. And so man and woman are born.

1:28
And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and
multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have
dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the
air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.

1:29

And God said, Behold, I have given you every herb bearing
seed, which is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree,
in the which is the fruit of a tree yielding seed; to you it
shall be for meat.

1:30
And to every beast of the earth, and to every fowl of the air,
and to every thing that creepeth upon the earth, wherein there
is life, I have given every green herb for meat: and it was so.

1:31
And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was
very good. And the evening and the morning were the sixth day.

> And so We gave ourselves absolute freedom. We created all of reality just so we could experience it freely. God could now experience.

This is the first chapter of Genesis, and probably one of the most important. Though it is not the complete details of creation, it is definately a good attempt to describe it. Obviously you will find your own interpretations of this text, which I welcome you to share with me, but I do hope you found my perspective interesting at least.

Chapter 2 will be examined in the future.

How to avoid the answers...

2006-10-12T14:54:00.000-07:00

The answer "There is no question" is an absolute kick in the teeth to us "seekers of truth". In honesty, I am unwilling to let go of the self-perception that I am a "spiritual person" or even "seeking god". Why? Because it makes me feel better about myself. Is this a valid reason? Truly, as a free and infinitely adaptable consciousness, do I have any legitimate reason to need to feel better about myself? How much better does it get?
So why do I hold onto to these labels? Why do I feel they are necessary to my existence? Because if I continue to hold onto them, I never have to deal with that brick wall that is "there is no question." That's it...when it boils down to it, all my beliefs, fears, judgments, and reactions are based on this avoidance. I want those labels...they are "important".
But really, all a label has ever done is describe something. If an infinite range of perception is available, then a label is simply trapping us in the perception of it's creator, not our own. The point is that any thing could be perceived in any way, to define that thing is to attempt to control change. We attempt to control our surroundings, our language, our community, our thoughts, our memories, our belief system, and even our own free will. All this simply to avoid an answer.
So why do I try to control reality? Because it is a distraction. If I am busy participating in the "outside world", I continue to hold onto the perception that I am separate from reality. Every single belief or fear that I have exists for the simple reason that I do not want to let them go. Ultimately, the only reason that I believe I am separate from reality is because I choose to believe it. If all perceptions are open to us, why then is it so hard to see this one? What is it about Unity that makes us run back to Duality?
Responsibility. Admitting that all of reality is contained in a single "consciousness"(I have to use a word here even though it doesn't really apply to an indescribable thing. This is the unfortunate limitation of language) is simple...in fact, we whole-heartedly enjoy believing in "God" because if there was a such thing as "God" then It would be responsible for how things are going.
But to admit that all of reality exists only in your consciousness means that you can no longer pass the buck. Basically it means that the things I hold onto are made real by my attention to them.
It is very hard to admit that everything that exists, exists because God wants it to. It's harder when You are God.
And Boom! Just like that the thoughts come whirling in...at the forefront of the charge is Judgement.
"But there are horrible things and people in the world, I would never do those things." --> Yes, I would if I were in the right circumstances and particular frame of mind. Basically if I was that person, that is exactly what I would do. Life is a long and infinitely complex journey of choice after choice after choice....each moment of your reality is a turning point. If perception is the map, and an infinite amount of perceptions exist, then it is our choices that decide where our journey takes us.
Boom! More atrocities turn up...murder, rape, war, disease, starvation!
"I would never do these things!" --> Once again, yes I probably would. But before casting judgement on these things, remember Duality. Horrible is the opposite of Wonderful...without one, there would be no other. This is truly hard to admit, but everything is happening so that I can experience. Not experience "something" in particular...but to experience period.
Without duality there is no experience. There is simple Unity.
So how do I avoid the answer? Simple...stay clear of these 3 habits.

Relaxing
/

/ The Moment ----- Paying Attention

To be honest, these 3 things actually mean the same thing.
One cannot be done without the other 2.
Example : Relaxing implies letting go of control. This leads to letting go of thought. Without thought we have unbiased experience. This experience is not distracted by the workings of the mind because you are relaxed...therefore you are paying attention. In paying attention you abandon Time...leading you to The Moment.

Why ask "Why?" Because the questions very existence implies I do not know the answer.

If you want to avoid the Answer...just keep asking questions. For every question you create, a justifiable reason to escape responsibility is born.

Duality and Creation : Where are Heaven and Hell?

2006-10-12T13:01:00.000-07:00

I have often said that Duality is the very foundation of Creation. I say this because the concept of Duality simply means that one thing must have something else to compare itself to, otherwise there would be only one thing ("everything"). This may seem fairly obvious, but the actual depths of this insight are vital to understanding both yourself and reality.

Duality plays into everything...
Physically: Light/Dark, Soft/Hard, Visible/Invisible, Real/Unreal, Awake/Asleep, Living/Dead, Quiet/Loud, Past/The Future, etc.
Mentally: Anger/Love, Fear/Faith, Greed/Generousity, Wisdom/Foolishness, Sadness/Joy, Understanding/Confusion, etc.

The most important thing to remember is not "why duality exists" but rather that it does exist. You could question this, even go into great thought about each of the things that I have listed. You could delve into memory, or even read a book to validate this . Realize though, no matter how much you want to doubt that this is true...it will still remain true.

Duality, however, is not the only reason I am writing this. I am writing this as an attempt to understand the origin of this thing we call "Heaven" and "Hell". Modern religion would state that Heaven and Hell are destinations after death. The pearly white gates in the clouds and the eternity of pain in the Lake of Fire (nice imagery, eh?)
Ignoring the assumptions of others, what then is Heaven and Hell? Where are these places? The answer lies in Duality.

Heaven and Hell are simply two sides of the same thing. The very concept of "God" is that God is everything...and therfore one thing. Putting this together, Heaven and Hell are just perception of God. To explain this a little better, let's look at what we think Heaven and Hell are like.

Hell : Pain, Torture, Sorrow, Guilt, Punishment for "Sins"
Heaven : Peace, Love, Contentment, and Safety

Basically, Hell is reality without the presence of "God", where Heaven is simply reality in complete connection to "God".
Remembering who you are (see "A question worth asking..."), does this not mean that Heaven and Hell are entirely dependant on how you view reality? Everything that exists, exists in your mind...you have infinite freedom to view reality however you please. This alone gives you the keys to Heaven or Hell. Duality comes into play again here. As I mentioned in another writing, in Duality you can either move away from something or towards something..the argument could be made that you can go "sideways" but that would still mean moving "towards" one direction or "away" from another.
Knowing that you are "God", this means that Heaven and Hell are perceptions of yourself. This also means that Heaven and Hell are not destinations after death...they are, in fact, right here and readily available to us (as everything else is)

To be yourself is Heaven, To attempt to be something else is Hell.

Change, Help, and Personal Responsibility

2006-10-11T18:25:00.000-07:00

In this world there are many different types of strange phenomena. One of the strangest has to be our insatiable desire to implement change. We honestly believe that without our help, change would not occur. We assume that, even if change did happen without us, it would inevitably be worse than change according to our design. Such arrogance we have! It is funny that we struggle to control the only constant in our known reality...inevitable change.
So why do we have this need for control? To put it bluntly, we are afraid of change. The very idea that something might happen that we do not expect frightens us to death. In fact, this fear is so widespread that we naturally associate it to other people, assuming that our council and advice will obviously improve the lives of others. The truly ironic part of all this is that eventually, after many generations, we also end up at the receiving end of someone elses need for control/security. Want an example? The entire concept of government is based on the need to control the status quo. So, now that the status quo has been decided, enforced, and made convenient, the public goes out into the world with a renewed sense of safety...until something happens that was not previously expected. Luckily, the system is fullproof when it comes to offering the illusion of control. Despite the fact that we know the government controls our education, laws, and even health care, we believe that, again, we must implement change. Rallies, riots, terrorists...each one a more extreme reflection of our need for control and our growing fear of uncontrolled change.
When will it be time for us, as a species, to stop and abandon our need for control? Left and right we will protest that we have found enlightenment and still we go out into the world looking for those who "need" us. Why? Because throughout our lives, other people have been using us for the same reason. Isn't it hard to accept that every assumption you have is based on the belief of someone else who just had to "improve" your life? Control and Dependancy go hand in hand...for us to give up one, we need to give up the other. Not as a society, that is how all of this began in the first place. You don't have to go out there the change the world. Your world is not out there your world is in you. For the longest time, we have believed that group decisions are best for the whole...unfortunately this creates a system where only a select number are pleased while the others are forced to abide by the collective decision. The slogan "we are all in this together" has been manipulated and bastardized to make you believe that only through numbers will positive change ever happen in the world.
This view of change is very limited, and more importantly, very inaccurate. We assume that the only important change is large-scale change because those are the only changes we stop to notice. Now, this is not because massive change is the only actual change...this is because we're moving too quickly to notice the very small and most important changes.
One of our natural assumptions has always been that everyone is seperate from everyone else and that thoughts are individual and private. This assumption is based on our belief in seperation...we believe that we are seperate from reality. Just for a moment, lets say that this belief is a perception...not necessarily the end-all and be-all, but one way of interpreting the world.
As I've mentioned in other writings, Duality is the absolute foundation of all perception. For love you have Hate, for arrogance you have Humility, and of course everything in between. We'll discuss this another time, but for now let's say that every perception has an equal opposite perception which is just as valid according to the perceiver. Saying that, let us look back at our last assumption.

"We are seperate from reality because we are within it." : This perception makes you and I very small specks in an apparently random mass of cause and effect.

My point is simply this, for this perception of seperation to exist the equal and opposite perception must also be available to us.

"I am connected to reality because it is within me": This perception creates absolute responsibility. Reality is within, and therefore all things within reality are a reflection of your beliefs, fears, doubts, deceptions, guilt, hopes, and even feelings. Change through active control of the outside world is redundant in this perception, change is entirely dependant on the perceivers ability to understand Duality. Within the mind, one has 3 options...to be looking for oneself, to be running from oneself, or to be oneself. Each of these states of perception are directly linked to how "reality" and you interact. It is in this perception that attention is paid to the smallest changes within, these are the origins of the larger changes without.

In this perception, help becomes an entirely new concept. The concept of helping someone is based on our beleif that they need help. Think about this...our entire lives are devoted to finding ourselves...whether we know and admit it or not. The only true way to find yourself is through abandoning your fear and standing on your own...but, how did you learn to stand in the first place? As much as we hate to admit it, it is our hard times, our loneliest and most frustrated times that teach us our own ability to survive and flourish. Our help is misplaced, it seems, because we are trying to make life easier on others, and all we are doing is creating a dependance in them. We are helping them avoid responsibility by believing that we are responsible for them. I realize that this may sound cold-hearted...it did to me at first. But the fact is that coddling people builds dependancy and inevitably a disbelief that any responsibility should be taken at all. This does not mean you shouldn't help someone carry a bag or move to a new house...by all means, help the person who would willingly do the job themself...the person who is not willing to try should be left to their own actions until responsibility is learned (reality is beautiful that way). These are reflections of you that believe they do not have choice or freedom, to be their crutch is choosing to let these reflections continue to exist.

So, what are we ultimately responsible for? Ourselves and our perception of the world. We are not responsible to ideals, morals, laws, people, or even God. We are responsible for what we hold onto and the "consequences" those things bring. We are responsible for this because, as "God", we create these hardships...we create circumstances specifically for the purposes of altering our own personal story. Choice is the path through perception and our circumstances alter our choice..inevitably we find ourselves with the same 3 choices we have in the Mind. Be yourself, find yourself, or run from yourself. Your responsibility is to choose...not once, but every moment you create.

A question worth asking...

2006-10-11T13:37:00.000-07:00

Throughout my entire life I have questioned who I am. True, there were times when I was absolutely convinced I knew who I was, only to find that person changing into something else. There were times when I decided I wanted to be something, tried my best to play the role, only to find myself faced with the same question....Who am I? As I noticed this question more, I began to notice my own reactions to this question. Anger, confusion, sadness, fidgeting, smoking, drinking, dependance on others for support, and even the media were scapegoats. When all is said and done, the only person who can answer the question is yourself...so, I decided it was worth answering. Unfortunately, trying to find yourself is a lot different from being yourself. It seems that most of my reactions, thoughts, and even impulses were based on experiences I had went through before. It occured to me here that even basing myself on my past is an escape...the question is not "Where have I been?", the question is "Who am I?". The problem with any question is that it requires an answer....but every answer is a label, an idea....to say I am one thing implies that I am not another. I have the capacity for choice, which also gives me the capacity for endless change...so I cannot be simply one thing, I can only be described as potentially everything. And then again comes the question...What is this thing I am that can be anything? If it can "be" anything, then it's not actually "anything" but rather "nothing". That sounded kind of frightening, so I thought it out a bit more. "Nothing" does not exist...even "nothing" is made of something, otherwise it wouldn't be describable. It seems to make a complete circle, ending in nowhere...nothing is the same as anything?
This circle is the most frustrating thing about the search for myself...always I want to answer a question, only to find that asking the question is simply avoiding the answer I already have.
This is very much like the question "What do you know is real?". You can point to things, describe things, and even tell a story...but the fact is that these things are only real in My mind...dreaming seems absolutely real, and when I'm dreaming it is real. So what then is the difference between dreaming and being awake if the mind is what makes things real? Once again though we are led back to our original point...what is the mind that "makes things real?" If it cannot be described, you are simply left with one answer....you. Not your idea of what "you" are, but this infinitely adaptable and free "consciousness" that is the very center of the "thought tornado". You are the thing that creates thought itself.
Right here is where I decided to ask another question...If I am the thing that creates thought, what am I like when I'm not thinking? Sounds a little counter-evolutionary, doesn't it? Again though, thinking is essentially the same as doubting...if I'm thinking about it, I'm doubting I already know it...and if thought and reality are created by My mind, then I absolutely Must know exactly when I need to know all the time. Right? Sounded good enough to me...
It came as very little surprise to me when I discovered that thinking about not thinking is a lot easier to accomplish than actually stopping thought. It seems almost like a river of infinitely random perceptions...suddenly I'm thinking about the past, suddenly I'm self conscious, suddenly I'm planning for the future hopefully. So who am I? I have the right to choose...I have this right by my ability to choose. Can I not then choose not to participate? Can I not simply choose to stop doubting? Can I choose to ignore thought and just be present? The answer was no, you cannot ignore thought or it will eventually overwhelm you. If everything, including thought, is the product of My mind, then it would be foolish to try to ignore myself. So how do I cope with this endless maelstrom that is my mind?
To answer this question, I had to first figure out what my mind really is, and more importantly how it works. Now think about this, all of reality is in your mind...your mind being this "nothingness" that can be anything. It's funny, but even "science" admits that all matter, broken down far enough is that Same Matter and is in fact, 99% empty space. This one is a little hard to grasp, but basically what I'm saying is that the computer screen your reading on right now is 99% empty space...it's not made of anything substantial. Go ahead, touch the screen, it seems very real, doesn't it? It's solid, the shape doesn't change, and you can say it's "real". But is it?
A paradox is the biggest and most irritating thought process in the world. But when it comes down to it, that is what reality is...it's a paradox. And here is why. The universe, time, space, and an infinite amount of things exist in reality....but without you here to perceive reality, would it exist? You cannot use another person or event to answer this because the fact is that you don't know...all you are sure of is that You exist. You who makes choices, You who perceives reality, and You who can be anything.
Religion and Spirituality have a concept that describes an "All powerful Entity that embodies everything" called God. I say that God is a concept because once again it is a Label, and a Label always has an "idea of what the thing is" when it could be anything at all. Though I do not believe in a pleasant looking grey haired old man in the clouds, I do have to question the validity of the concept. What would it mean to be "All powerful and have the capacity for anything?" What would I do if I were God?
I would do everything...But "doing" implies having "something" to do. I would have to "create" something to do and even a body to do it in. But as God I would be "everything", how can I "be in" something when it's in me? Duality...that's the key. If there are always 2 perceptions of one thing, than I have choice between one or the other. Poof, just like that, Duality/Creation was born. Light, Dark, Hard, Soft, Living, Dead, The Future and The Past...all of it linked together as two perceptions of the same one thing. Now God could be "one thing" in "something else" because it could perceive itself as one half of the same thing. Of course God would want to experience every different form possible....spider, cat, human, tree, rock, lizard, etc....everything. After all, God is Eternal....that's a long time to kill.
Here's a good question for God...would you forget your god if you could? You might ask yourself, "why would God want to forget itself?" Think about it...God is one thing. The only thing. That also means that God is alone and always will be. Of course, God having Eternity, even this question would be answered. Because all things are possible to God, all things are reality as well. So there are in fact, realities where God has absolutely convinced itself that it is not God.
So, who am I then who can create a concept called "God?" If all things are in my mind, then surely even God is a creation of my own idea and design. So if even God is my creation, I have to ask myself again...who am I? Am I God? Millions of thoughts and defences pop into my head, all of them screaming like a legion of angry demons that this cannot be true...doubts, fears, accusation of arrogance, and especially thoughts of unworthiness clammor before me. However, I am not my thoughts, I am that which chooses. I can choose to believe I have the right. I can cast out these "demon thoughts" by simply seeing them for what they are....necessary creations of duality.
So the question finally changes....it is no longer "Who am I?"
It is "Am I willing to admit who I am?"

The Journal of a Forgetful God

Stop

The Eye of I

Be - Recommended Reading

Be: The Cure for Dis-ease

Expressing myself....

Family

Interesting clues....

Dropping "Being Bombs"

Meanings that mean nothing....

Reborn...

Being Truthful to the Self

Seeds and Perception

The "Devoutly Religious"

The Thought Police

Over and over...

Progress...

Without words...

What if....

Getting to the point...

Here I come...

Don't turn back

I can hear you...

Infinite Reflections...

The Problem with Problems

Musical Reflections...

Philosophical or Practical

This is what we call "Progress"?

Listen very closely....

Why don't you Believe?

The source of our Need

Why do we Want?

In "The Void"

How does God speak? (Continued)

How does God speak?

What is

The Law does NOT apply to You

Humanity (sigh)

You don't see me

Choice

Health and Double Standards

The Medical system is designed to Kill You

Is the Effort necessary?

The End of Days explained

Suggested Reading

Who am I trying to convince?

The question of my knowledge and right...

Jehovah’s Witness’s come to my door today

Be Like One God (B.L.O.G.)

Creationism and Evolutionism: Two perceptions of the same Truth

Why do we need to limit God?

Religion : an escape from God

Insight

Genesis Revisited : Chapter 1

How to avoid the answers...

Duality and Creation : Where are Heaven and Hell?

Change, Help, and Personal Responsibility

A question worth asking...