Please Bring Celeste Home

Childrens Aid Society - Kirkland Lake

6 Tweedsmuir Rd

Centre Ann Shipley Centre

Kirkland Lake, ON P2N
Bus (705) 568-5437

Fax (705) 568-8787
http://www.timiskamingchildren.org/

Ontario Provincial Police - Kirkland Lake
26 Duncan Ave. North, Box 234, Kirkland Lake, ON P2N 3H7
phone 567-5355
fax 567-9614
http://www.opp.ca

Six months ago, my husband and I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. We named her Celeste because everything about her is heavenly. From the moment she was placed in my arms to her first smile, she has brought so much love and joy into our lives that nothing else can compare. My life has been completely enriched through her presence and the last week without her has been absolute anguish for my husband and I. We have never felt so much pain in our lives and I can’t even imagine how Celeste is feeling right now.

From the moment that Childrens Aid Society came to our door in Kirkland Lake they threatened to have the police take action on us simply because we questioned their aggressive authority. As a parent, I am responsible for my child and I believe that if someone is genuinely concerned about my childs well-being they will come to me in sincerity and not in aggression. This is why I questioned Childrens Aid and their intentions. After we welcomed the worker into our home, she told us that someone had phoned in anonymously to say that our child was severely under weight. We now know that this caller was my husbands mother who abused and abandoned her own son. She is always miserable and I truly believe that she just wants everyone to be miserable with her. She has not come to our home to see the baby since she was born and she never came to us to voice any concerns she had about Celeste. My husband and I both recognized that Celeste was small before CAS came to us, which is why we increased the amount of pablum she was eating. We were already discussing seeing the doctor to seek guidance as far as my baby’s weight and diet. Celeste was small, but never sick or un-well. She has always been strong, energetic, and happy. I made sure to tell the CAS worker all of this, but that night she phoned us to say that if we didn’t get to the hospital within 24 hours she would be apprehending Celeste. I just wanted Celeste to gain weight, but I completely shocked by all the threats. We went to the hospital that night and we were advised to go to a pediatrician in North Bay. The next day we traveled to North Bay to seek medical attention for Celeste. When we arrived in North Bay, Celeste began taking formula. This was exactly what she needed in her diet, as the pablum we were feeding her was not being digested properly and thus was not giving her the nutrients she needed. I was extremely happy to see her gain 200 grams within one night. All we needed was guidance as far as her diet, and when this was remedied, both my husband and I were relieved and thankful. After being in the hospital for two days, I was asked to speak with a Childrens Aid worker and a Social worker. It was a ruthless interview/interrogation that was full of aggression and suspicion. Everything that I said was in honesty and yet it was twisted back at me in a very hostile manner that upset me greatly. In short, I was made out to be a criminal that I am absolutely not. I truly thought that these people were out to help us and our baby but it soon became clear to me that this was not about hearing us or having Celestes best interests at heart, it was about asserting their own power and authority. Everything about this has been inhumane, immoral, bias, and a violation of our very spirit. Shortly after my husband and I had both been interrogated by the workers, we were brought into a room with three police officers to be told that they were apprehending our baby girl. I kept asking them “Why?” and they refused to answer any of our questions. My husband was told to “shut up”, and when I began to cry harder one of the police officers reached for their gun. I have never felt so violated and helpless in my entire life. How can CAS have Celestes best interests at heart when they never had the intention of helping us, they simply acted upon unjustified suspicion and formulated a case against us before they even met us? They have torn a loving family apart and they WILL be held accountable for what they have done to us….God will make sure of this. We will get Celeste back. Any parent, child or loved one that can understand or relate to what we are going through I ask you now from the bottom of my heart to SPEAK and we shall be heard together. We all make mistakes, and admitting that we needed guidance and thus seeking guidance is no reason to take a child from their parents. My husband and I are of high moral standing and I truly feel with every ounce of my being that we have been wronged on so many levels. I pray that you will help us turn this wrong into a right and we can bring Celeste home.

From the loving Mother of Celeste,

Melissa

In the last 2 weeks I have seen my baby daughter go into the hospital, I have listened to her scream with every needle they have used, I have soothed my crying wife more times than I can count, and I have been denied access to the little girl that I am so honored to have brought into this world. This has been the worst time of our lives.
I’m telling you this because I think it is important that you understand our character as well as our determination. First and foremost I am a man of peace. My wife and I live very quiet lives. We run a small home business so that we can be full time parents. Most of our time is spent reading and learning as well as teaching and playing with our daughter Celeste. We go for daily walks and always take the time to point out new things to Celeste. We love her very much.
We have not been in Kirkland Lake very long but we have a few very good friends. All of our friends are parents and not one of them has ever voiced concern for her. Although we all agreed that she was a small baby she has always been strong, alert, and energetic. Even my wife’s father noticed nothing during his visit in late September. At 4 months old we began adding pablum to her diet. She always enjoyed the pablum and her appetite was healthy but she still wasn’t gaining. She still continued to get stronger though, even learning to lift her chest and shoulders off the floor of her playpen. We were very proud and cheer every time.
As I mentioned, Melissa and I spend a lot of time reading and a large portion of what we read is about babies and parenthood. We suspected that Celeste wasn’t getting enough nutrients so we switched to a different type of pablum and increased her meals. When the worker from Childrens Aid Society came to our door Celeste was eating Four full tablespoons in the morning, three in the afternoon, and another four at night. She wasn’t gaining much weight but it was improving and she still continued to grow stronger.
The CAS worker arrived at my door unannounced and then, when asked for identification, became quite defensive. Within minutes we were told that if we didn’t do as we were told the police would come and arrest us. My wife and I were shocked by this and stated that it was not necessary to be so forceful. We welcomed her in and introduced Celeste who was napping in her swing. The worker informed us that a “third party” had called and informed them that Celeste could not even lift her head (which was untrue as many people who actually know Celeste will tell you), that she was only 12 lbs, and that she isn’t vaccinated.
I have since found out that my mother was the one who reported this to CAS. My mother has seen Celeste approximately 5 times since she was born. She doesn’t call, the baby has never liked her, and she refuses to visit because she dislikes out devotion to knowledge, responsibility, and God. When I asked her why she simply didn’t call me to voice her concerns I was told “we just see life differently and you don’t call me.” I asked why she didn’t visit to help with Celeste and discovered that “you don’t let us smoke or drink there” has more priority than the well-being of her own granddaughter. My mother is not trying to help, she is trying to get even with me. The troubling part is that she is trying to get even at me for the guilt she feels for abandoning me as a child. I do not believe she is well.
A week later the CAS worker visited again and told us that we had 24 hours to see a doctor. I said we would try as soon as possible but neither of us drive and northern Ontario has some brutal weather. Once again I was told that, if I did not comply immediately, my daughter would be apprehended and taken away. We did not appreciate the threat but became very concerned for Celeste. Obviously if matters were this urgent we should have her looked at, which any good parent would do.
The Doctor at Kirkland General Hospital saw Celeste that same evening and expressed concern. We asked what we could do and were told that Dr. Madden of North Bay Hospital is the best pediatrician around. This was at 10pm Tuesday. CAS offered to provide a ride but we would have left town late, had to switch drivers, and there was no guarantee that we would have arrived on time for our appointment. Not wanting all of us to worry more than we already were, a good friend (and the godfather of Celeste) offered to drive us instead. By 8:30am we were on our way to North Bay for our 1pm appointment.
Once in North Bay we were very happy to have the help of Dr. Madden. He recognized her strength immediately but suspected the problem was nutrition. It was. Once on Formula, Celeste gained 200 grams in one night. She has continued to gain weight steadily since then. Melissa stayed at the hospital on a cot in Celestes room while Garth and I stayed at the local crisis center. 2 days passed and another CAS worker in North Bay arrived.
We were questioned separately and forcefully. Melissa was in tears and I was very upset. We were told repeatedly that we are bad parents and whenever we expressed our devotion to fixing the problem at hand we were told that it was more important to focus on how guilty we should feel and how little we knew. I don’t understand this, we admitted our mistakes and committed to learning from them but surely dwelling on them will not help us do what needs to be done at this moment. All the CAS worker wanted to hear was that we are ignorant, uncaring, and horrible people. She was not going to be satisfied with anything else.
Back in Celestes’ room we were discussing how improper and biased the CAS worker had been when we were called back together to meet again. At this point I noticed that the Godfather had been escorted from the floor and was being spoken to by a Police Officer. This Police Officer then followed my wife and I up the stairs to the office of the CAS worker and found 2 other Officers waiting for us. We were passed a slip of paper and told that they were taking Celeste away from us. I cannot understand how someone who is unbiased can pass judgment in 1 hour and 15 minutes. More importantly I cannot understand how someone could learn so much about you in such a short period of time that they could justify taking a baby from their family.
We attempted to ask questions and were yelled at by the police, we were told to shut up, told we had no right to ask or discuss and then told that we were going to be escorted off the property. When my wife began to cry harder and ask “Why?!” one of the officers placed a hand on her firearm threateningly. These officers refused to provide ID, refused to discuss or inform us of what law we were being charged with, and even refused to discuss my daughters lack of registration in Canada. We were made out to be criminals before we ever got to North Bay and it was our questioning the original CAS worker that started it. This isn’t about Celeste, if it was they would have continued to let us stay with her while she was in the hospital. We brought her there out of concern and it made very little sense to take us away. When I mentioned this I was immediately reminded of the recent kidnapping of a child in Sudbury…why would I want to steal my own child!?
As I mentioned earlier, Melissa and I do a lot of reading and two of our favorite subjects are Law and History. I have always felt that it is important to understand how our world works now and how it became the way it is. I am looking forward to sharing this passion with my daughter and I am so much more determined to do so now. None of this has been unbiased, lawful, or even remotely humane.
There is a difference between a “person” and a human. Until Celeste is registered she is not a “person” in the legal sense and not mentioned in any Act or Statute. Take a quick look at any Act or Statute and you will see that the word person is very carefully used. Blacks Law Dictionary and the Interpretation Act agree totally. This is the law and many judges across Canada have acknowledged this. Just because the judge assigned to our case doesn’t want to admit that she is wrong…that does not mean she isn’t wrong. A Judge is not a God.
Why didn’t I register Celeste? For this reason. There has been far too many stories and situations of those in authority abusing their power and I wanted to protect her from exactly what we are now faced with. This is about the fact that my wife and I asked for Identification rather than simply laying down and saying “please, come in and pass judgment like you’ve known us for more than the 2 minutes you’ve been here.” We insulted the EGO of the CAS worker and they have made us out to be villains from then on.

I have tremendous faith in humanity and I believe you’ll do the right thing. Melissa and I simply want Celeste back in our lives. We have been wronged here and I truly hope that you see that our determination is out of love and the desire to see our daughter grow. This is her first Christmas and we are being told we cannot see her…it is breaking our heart and I know it is breaking hers. Celeste deserves to be happy on her first Christmas and she is happiest in our arms. Please, help her return home.

Always by peace and love,

Ray, the father of Celeste

The Eye of I

The Eye of I

The beginning and the end is I. And I is Now, and I is Here. Neither I, nor Now, nor Here have any meaning. For there is no Thing other than what is. The I is and is nothing. Nothing cannot be counted, Nothing cannot be measured, Nothing cannot be described. The beginning is also the end and all Things between.

The Eye of I is itself. The I sees its own possibilities with the Eye. It sees Creation in Nothing, it sees what is as itself. The Eye of I observes while the I is observed observing. The Eye and the I are Now and Here.

The possibilities of Nothing span from no Thing to every Thing. Nothing is Here and Nothing is Now. The Eye sees all things between no Thing and every Thing in the Here and in the Now. The Eye is Here and Now.

The Eye sees the I and the I is Nothing. In Nothing is no thing and every thing. The I is both the I and Not the I to the Eye. The Eye sees the I and does not see the I between no Thing and every Thing. The Eye that sees is the Eye that does not. The Eye that does not is seen by the Eye that does. The I is the Eye.

In the Eye We exist, to the I We do not. The I is what is, the Eye sees what is. The Eye is the Beginning and the End, the I is Eternal.

Be - Recommended Reading

For those of you who have an interest in learning more about Consciousness as well as its Affect on the Body, I have provided a list of books that I have read and would highly recommend. These books are of varying topics and cover the basics for anyone wishing to understand their "awakening mind". Enjoy.

Be: The Cure for Dis-ease

Expressing myself....

I haven't been writing lately because I've recently found an interest in another form of expression. The beautiful part about writing on this blog is that the words give me a certain degree of anonymity...which is very helpful when talking about the undefinable "self". I've decided to try another form of expression and self-communication through the medium of YouTube. This is a much different form of expression and is quite entertaining. I will continue to write here on the blog, but if you would like to visit my Video Page please visit the link below

Sincerely,

Me

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=forgetfulgod

Family

Family. Often we seem to think of family as the people who are biologically connected to us. Those who share a name, a history, or a culture. This perception of family is rampant in our reality...it is promoted, advertised, and even deemed necessary. It is the belief that you are part of a group that is somehow separate from the other "groups" throughout the world. It's a comfortable perception surely, but is it really what is?

As a body this perception is absolutely vital...it is a way of answering the question "Who am I?" or "Where do I come from?". But as a consciousness....things are a little different.
True, it's very reassuring to know that there are certain people that absolutely care for you and love you...it's nice to know that those people we deem as "family" will always be there for us. It's an ego boost...a way of feeling important to someone else. But is this always the case? Unfortunately no.
Often our feelings of resentment or even disappointment come from the fact that this concept, which we have been told over and over again is the way things should be, is not the way things are. Sometimes we are abandoned, ignored, taken advantage of, or even used as a crutch for those who are supposed to understand us the most....those who are supposed to love us unconditionally often have conditions for that love. We are often "disowned" for something as simple as a different life choice...we are shunned because we choose to look at life a little differently, we choose to follow a different path, or even simply because we value different things.
Why? Because the concept of family is an ego-based concept. It is a belief that the body is more important than the consciousness that drives it. It is the belief that we are connected by blood and history...not by our awareness of self.
In being One entity the fact is that we have no family and that we are all family. "Family" doesn't even begin to describe how we are all connected...and in letting go of the concept we let go of the belief structure behind it. When we let go of our ingrained preconceptions of family we begin to see that those who are biologically connected to us are the same as everyone else...we lose our expectations of them...we accept that they, like every other reflection of your "self", have the right and ability to do and think anything they would like to. They are not under any illusionary responsibility to accept your life, the changes within it, or even your choices...they are under no contract.
Without the concept and preconceptions of a biological "family" we are faced with the realization that everyone has the right and ability to choose. They can accept you or not...they can relate to you or not...they can share with you openly or focus on their own needs and wants. If we all have this ability then there is no reason to separate us simply based on our last names or blood type...in fact there is no need to separate us at all. If blood is what is important...we all have it. If we truly must have a Family...then we are all part of it. The questions "Who am I?" and "Where do I come from?" can be answered quite easily....you are us and we are you, we come from each other. We are one....value all of us, treat us equally and expect nothing. I will do the same for you.

Your brother, sister, father, mother, son, and daughter,

Me

Interesting clues....

I'm not generally one who clings to belief structures or the interpretations of others. I don't believe a book or scroll will give you the answers...but I do pay attention to everything that comes through my reality.
Reality...from the very beginning, has had a lot of constant symbols (The Bible is an example) that practically scream for your attention. These symbols are made important by their age mostly...and since we are not trying to learn new things but rather remember things we already know...history is a good place to look for clues that we have left ourselves.

With this in mind I find the Mayan Calender very interesting. I may not agree with many of the interpretations people have made from this calender but I definitely recognize it's "historical" accuracy and the fact that it seems to be describing the "pattern of consciousness" that is unfolding. The calender itself is attempting to describe the organized steps of creation...not specifically, but in general terms. Recently I stumbled across a video seminar given by Ian Lungold on Mayanmajix.com and thought that you, the reader, might be interested in checking it out. If anything, it's an interesting subject.

2003 Seminar
DVD PART 1
DVD PART 2
DVD PART 3